[crazy1]

Been sober twice for eleven years. Every time i hit eleven I drank. Realized there had to be something going on that i was not aware of or this would not keep happening. I have been in AA worked the steps ect. but never realized that i had other problems that could not be helped with AA. I now have 10 months and am in therapy dealing with DID, PTSD, whatever and feel i finally have a chance. This process really sucks some days and i really feel like i can't continue but then with the help of friends i get through it and the next day or so days later i feel ok again. Therapy is very hard and trust is almost impossible for me but i keep trying. I really frustrate my therapist sometimes she says im very challenging. You do go through abuse for 43 years and not become quite a bit challenging. I had to survive. I do not blame this on my alcoholism actually alcohol was my treatment for this for years but then i drank too hard to long and i crossed the line where alcohol didn't work any longer either. Thank you for listening.

[splitimage]

I'm glad that you're gettting help dealing with your other issues. Heck even the Big Book says that there's a place for other helping professionals in getting better. I know I relapsed almost immediately after i got out of treatment the first time, because my underlying depression wasn't dealt with and with out the "medication" of the booze it just got worse. The second time I did rehab, my pdoc realized I was in trouble and I wound up in a psych hospital for 7 weeks. Only by treating my alcoholism and my mood disorder at the same time am I able to stay sober.

Treatment can be really hard but it's so worth it in the long run.

Good luck.

--splitimage

[crazy1]

Thank you so much for your response. People in AA that don't have other issues? don't understand this at all. AA has saved my life many times but now i want my saved life to be free of the issues in my past that linger on and prevent me from living my life as happily as it should be.