[RozG]

so i'm hurting like crazy, drunk as a skunk...who really cares?

i wouldn't ...so join the "Roz is worthless scum" bandwagon and don't care either!!!

[darco]

not gonna jump on your bandwagon as no one is worthless! . been trying to quit the drinking but don't seem to get anything done when sober! as soon as i have deadlines (which is most days) i need to drink in order to keep going till 3, 4 am. Am i just weird or true of others?

[RozG]

i really don't know, i'm not fit to say but...apart from one can this is the first time i've drunk in about 12 years so i feel like **** for giving in.

thanks for responding to my post but please do yourself a favor now? realize your own self worth and get some serious help to quit drinking. it may mask the pain for a while but it sure as sugarlumps ain't a long term answer. and guaranteed your liver will agree if you don't.

peace,
roz
xx

[sabby]

(((((((((((( Roz ))))))))))))))))

So you gave in during a weak time.....it is NOT the end of the world. So tomorrow you get up and you begin again....The beginning of your life to start over tomorrow.....news at 10

You are worthy....you are good....you are a sweety.....you are worth feeling better about yourself.


sabby

((( Roz )))

Don't beat yourself up over this. So you may have stumbled today, but in life, everyone stumbles- what is important is that you realize this is just a temporary set back, and the next day you can try again.

Hope you are feeling better soon. You're not worthless.

[RozG]

((((((((Sabby))))))))

you just brought a smile to my face by reminding me it's not the end of the world. i think i've always tried too hard to be perfect yet why? deep down i know i'm not a bad person and nobody is perfect.

thank you for the reminder


roz

[DePressMe]

I care...please be careful and take care of yourself.

[RozG]

((((Griffe)))) either you posted at the same time as me or i'm a bit too far gone.

thank you for your support, it means a lot!

it's sad but i do need reminding it's just one stumble and tomorrow is another day. i've spent too many years publicly appearing to be perfect that...well, it's like the saying don't believe your own publicity.

thank you for reminding me tomorrow is another day.

[RozG]

((((DePressMe)))))

i just read your post. i'll be careful tonight if you'll be careful too ok?

love and hugs,
roz

[DePressMe]

Roz, I am being careful. I spent some time welcoming newcomers--trying to get my mind off my cravings. I think it helped some. I need to remember to stay grateful. Sorry about highjacking your thread a little...I am feeling a little neglected and you always make me feel better....

[RozG]

((((((DePressMe))))))

i secretly like when my thread is hijacked. it stops me being such a self-centred so-and-so...lol.

and as i always tell people and mean it...it doesn't matter how bad a nite i'm having, i still care about you.

i'm glad you had the distraction of welcoming newcomers, i've always found that a pleasant distraction.

as for things to be grateful for...here's the ones i'm trying to remind myself of tonite, bearing in mind i grew up a runaway and a lot of folks basics are still luxuries to me:

i'm grateful tonite...

i have a roof over my head
i have food in my stomach
i have clothes on my body
i have a bed to sleep in
i have warm blankets
i have heating, light and hot water
i have FRIENDS who care
i have you

not bad for starters eh?

maybe you have more you could think of to be grateful for?

peace, love, hugs,
roz
xxx

[DePressMe]

As a kid I lived out rough too. I spent many nights cold and hungry. You are right. I do have many things to be grateful for.

So, whenever, I push my cart out of the grocery store to my car, I feel rich. I feel rich because I have so much food. I told a friend that and she thought I was weird--"its just food." Do you ever get that feeling?

[Stiv]

You type pretty well for someone *Drunk as a skunk*

I guess degrees are all a matter of perspective.

~Stiv

[RozG]

Yes DePressMe...I do! But if your friends thinks you weird tell her this....i think myself rich to have friendship. Food and a roof is just a bonus i appreciate very much.

You take gentle care of yourself.

[RozG]

(((( Stiv ))))

you have no idea how much deleting and retyping is going on here with me. also remember english is still...after all these years...a foreign language to me.

so i'm struggling to post but even as a toddler i was a fighter and i NEED to post atm for the support and sanity it brings. i'm sure you know the saying where there's a will there's a way? well, that's me...LOL.

[splitimage]

((((Roz))))

Like others have said, a slip doesn't make you a total screw up or failure, and it certainly doesn't make you worthless. You can always start over tomorrow. After all 24 hours is all the sobriety we're capable of at any one time.

--splitimage

[RozG]

((((splitimage))))

thank you for your words. no-one before pc has ever put it the "one day at a time" way to me before. maybe because i've never been part of a support forum or a support group. i struggle alone to stay sober and clean surrounded by friends who think that's the only way to survive the week. that's not what i want so i struggle alone and pretty much get crucified for it IRL.

that's why support from folks such as yourself means so much so thank you.

[chalmette70043]

(((((((Roz)))))) I wish you wasnt hurting. Remember you can start all over tomorrow. I've done that quite a few times. Just dont drink anymore tonite and try to get yourself a good nights sleep.

lvoe ya,
chalmette

[RozG]

((((((Chalmette))))))

thank you i will. and maybe i'll look at finding a support program too.

hope you're good tonite,
love you too,
roz
xx

[iamtwilight]

(((Kalamity Roz)))

I'm sorry you are hurting.

Hope this will be a better day for you.

Like others have said, it's not like you don't have another chance.

[StarPonysMama]

Just because you stub your toe, doesn't mean you quit walking.

Support is cool.

I was sober nearly 3 months before I joined AA.

I think it helps.

Nothing wrong with support. FO SHO.

[RozG]

((((((((Katie))))))))

Thank you for caring.

It's black coffee all the way today.

Today is better thanks and I hope today is good for you too.

[RozG]

((((StarPonysMama))))

You're right that there's no harm in finding support. I live in a typical inner-city estate surrounded by drink and drugs. It's just too easy to make the wrong choice on a bad day. I know if I find myself a support program then I can at least pick up the fone for support instead.

Thank you for caring and replying.

Hope today is good for you.

[StarPonysMama]

It's just as easy to find the drink on a bad day in the boonies of North Florida! LOL

I feel your pain!

Good for you and the Coffee! Today is a new day!

[RozG]

It is a new day and I'm determined today to not screw up. I've decided to swallow my pride and get the help and support I need.

Meantime, it means the world to know you all care.

Thank You ((((StarPonysMama)) for being here.


roz

p.s. can i say i love your siggy, it's sweet.