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Been sober twice for eleven years. Every time i hit eleven I drank. Realized there had to be something going on that i was not aware of or this would not keep happening. I have been in AA worked the steps ect. but never realized that i had other problems that could not be helped with AA. I now have 10 months and am in therapy dealing with DID, PTSD, whatever and feel i finally have a chance. This process really sucks some days and i really feel like i can't continue but then with the help of friends i get through it and the next day or so days later i feel ok again. Therapy is very hard and trust is almost impossible for me but i keep trying. I really frustrate my therapist sometimes she says im very challenging. You do go through abuse for 43 years and not become quite a bit challenging. I had to survive. I do not blame this on my alcoholism actually alcohol was my treatment for this for years but then i drank too hard to long and i crossed the line where alcohol didn't work any longer either. Thank you for listening.

I'm glad that you're gettting help dealing with your other issues. Heck even the Big Book says that there's a place for other helping professionals in getting better. I know I relapsed almost immediately after i got out of treatment the first time, because my underlying depression wasn't dealt with and with out the "medication" of the booze it just got worse. The second time I did rehab, my pdoc realized I was in trouble and I wound up in a psych hospital for 7 weeks. Only by treating my alcoholism and my mood disorder at the same time am I able to stay sober.

Treatment can be really hard but it's so worth it in the long run.

Good luck.

--splitimage

Thank you so much for your response. People in AA that don't have other issues? don't understand this at all. AA has saved my life many times but now i want my saved life to be free of the issues in my past that linger on and prevent me from living my life as happily as it should be.