[Worldofpain]

I smoke weed everyday, partially because its helps to minimize my chronic stomach pain & partially just so I can take a break from reality.
I dont find it affects my life that drastically, I can still function the same way I would if I didnt just smoke, possibly better, but it does make it harder for me to concentrate on my emotions & to feel them to the extent I know I need to in order to 'get better.'
I have also partaken in the stupid act of snorting oxycocet (perks). I dont do it that often, partially because they are hard to come by, and its hard to hide. I do this because it sort of numbs me, brings me into a different, more relaxed world.
The big thing is though, is how much is too much? I dont even know if I care all that much... because part of the reason I do them, is just because I know its hurting myself, and im not a big fan of myself...
I dont know, I feel so stupid.

[splitimage]

First off you're not stupid. Everyone makes choices about using for different reasons.

It's a huge first step to even think about how much you're using, and wonder if it's healthy, so good for you for asking the question.

Only you can decide if you have a problem, but one basic definition of addiction is continuing to use despite having problems associated with use. You've said yourself that the pot keeps you from feeling your emotions which you know you need to do in order to get better, so that may be a reason to cut back.

Personally I'd stay away from the perks - it's dangerous, it's illegal, (well so is pot but that's not as bad) and it's addictive as all hell.

I see you're from ON. If you're at all near Toronto and would like information pm me and I can give you the numbers for some OHIP covered assessment services that can help you make decisions around your drug use.

--splitimage