Severity was extreme.

I come to the conclusion to finally get over it - that's when I had trouble with all my physc medications.

It was worse coming off the medications than the addition.

Last night and all day until 2:00 I kept running out for more.

Each time I have to take a xannax and caring it in my purse in case I was pulled over I would just say my med.'s were off that day,

But I've lived in this house since 2004. Thoses requarly runs always about 10:30.p.m.

Another addition is the impulsive/compulsive.... So by getting off the addition at the end of the month I actually had $20.00. That's impossible for me. If I had one last penny in my wallet I tell them to keep it

SO March 27, I $140.00. I know owe a dealer $20.00 and my mate $45.00.

Ever one has some vice - my mate smokes cig.s , I mean coughs, chokes....but that's legal.

THERE IS NO COMPARISON - ACUTUALLY IN POSION THERE ARE MORE. JUST SAYING NO EXCUSE

I do get trigger: he watches cops, bounty hunter crap like that, seeing dealings right on my corners....

Kind'a sure what trigger .... the urge was big time yesterday.

[madisgram]

starlite do you have a pdoc? perhaps he can help you with all this. wasn't quite sure if you are abusing your meds or if you are using street drugs too. that xanex is highly addictive, in my humble opinion. i didn't ever abuse it but had some weird blackout periods while on it, etc. i hope you will see if you can get some help with all this. it's easier to deal with than trying to do it alone. take care.

Originally Posted by madisgram

starlite do you have a pdoc? perhaps he can help you with all this. wasn't quite sure if you are abusing your meds or if you are using street drugs too. that xanex is highly addictive, in my humble opinion. i didn't ever abuse it but had some weird blackout periods while on it, etc. i hope you will see if you can get some help with all this. it's easier to deal with than trying to do it alone. take care.

That's one think I have never done was abuse my medication. At the on start of medication I didn't want to go on xannax due to because of that side affect. I'm suppose to take 4 a day I take 3. If I feel the 3rd is needed I'll try a chamolie tea first. I've never had ill effects on it.

THAT'S THE STRANGEST THING TO ME: people want them and drink beer with them.

The street drug I was as the lessor evil. That then leaves numb\dumbness.

I DID make it to the LAST week of the month with $140.00. (I'll ignore the negatives numbers - and go to sleep)