I wish everyone would just shut up about food!

Hi! Im new here. I have been suffering from anorexia ever since I was 15 so for just over 15 years now Ive been dealing with it off and on.
SO this is just a rant...lol
I am 5 5 and a half. I went to my psychiatrist the other day and he weighs me every time and he kept *****ing because in 4 weeks I have lost some weight. I WORK 40 hours a week, I go to college over FULL time, I am responsible for the house cleaning, laundry and all other duties. Im on the go all the time. The school semester is almost over so lots of work is needing to be done and final exams. I have so much going on. Then I ran into one of my old therapist and he said what are you on?? WTF?? He said what uppers are you on? Your body looks very boney. Excuse me...but how freakn rude. Thanks for the support old therapist! This is on the same day so it pissed me off.
What do ya'll think? Should I be concerned or am I just hiding behind the fact that I know that I can fit into my "skinny" jeans now??
Thanks!

Hello and welcome! I can understand your frustration, but please try to remember that these people are trying to help you to be a healthy weight. That is what they have been working with you about. They aren't trying to be your best buddy. But your weight is their primary concern. I agree that a "hello--it's good to see you" might have been nice, but..... Being too thin can damage your body permanently. You can always buy new jeans.

I know you are very busy, but you have to make time to eat to be able to keep functioning adequately. Okay?

I know that's not what you wanted to hear, but I am telling you the truth.

Boncha, I too have been battling ana off and on for about 15 yrs or so. I have finally got my weight to a stable amount and have been maintaining it for about a month now. I have to make myself eat lunch most days because I am so busy with work. Which means I have to take the time to fix and pack my lunch in the morning before heading off to work. It is not easy, but I make it happen. I have no clue how much I weigh and though there are times that I wish I knew, I know that it is for the better that I don't know. Every time I have to be weighed, I ask to be weighed blind and for them not to tell me how much it is. If they question me or give me a look, I just gently explain that I am anorexic and can't know my weight. Most are more than willing to do that for me with that little explaination. Does you old therapist know about ana? If not he sounds like he needs to be educated on it just a little bit as well as working on his "bedside" manner. I can understand how angry that made you feel. My dietician says that she allows for a +/- of x lbs before she gets worried. She hasn't told me what that is, but she also told me that she isn't going to let me over eat. Have you looked into getting a dietician? For me they really help along with a great therapist who really understands EDs.

If you ever want to talk privately, feel free to pm me. I know that sometimes it is nice to talk to someone your own age who is going through similar life events.

Thank you both for responding. I have a new therapist now it was my old therapist that said that to me. He is a great guy but is very blunt and he just says whats on his mind. He is a recovered drug addict and he knows about being addicted to something and i am honestly addicted to not letting myself be big/curvy its hard to explain because I dont know if I look bad or if its in my head or do I really need to gain weight? I know we cant say numbers on here but according to the BMI char I am underweight but its not by much so whos to say that is too skinny? I dont understand why people arent more concerned with the fact that obesity is on the rise and just do this- walk into any store freakn look around you at the overweight people....thats what the world needs to be looking at. Its sickening to me and I dont care if that sounds rude or not. I have been a "bigger" girl I lost all the weight and it was the weight of a entire child that I lost. I know what it feels like to be overweight. I just dont know anymore....I hate all these battles in life I have to deal with. Its the one thing I feel I have control over. My 14 year marriage is falling apart, i am financially broke, my credit is ruined...i dont have health insurance..the list goes on..