[SingDanceRunLife]

Today T said it. Anorexic. That's me. I knew it, but didn't want to accept it. Accepting the fact that I have an ED (not-specified) was hard enough. But I want to be able to accept it and move on. I don't want to be this girl forever. I never wanted to be this girl to begin with.

I'm going to weekly therapy, and now the focus will be on ED treatment rather than the other things I'm in T for, and I'm going to see a nutritionist that my T partners with...so I'm going down the right road...but it's a hard one, and I don't feel fully prepared...

At least I'm not denying it anymore...that's a big step in itself.

[eskielover]

I'm guessing that some of those things you are in T for already are some of the things that are underneath & surrounding your ED in the first place....know it was the case for me.

Hard to move on until the foundation of WHY the ED in the first place is solved & then coming to the place of what kind of control are you really willing to put on your eating?

For me even without Anorexia, I always had disordered eating...it wasn't until bad depression & then again when I was living through a trauma that the actual Anorexia took over & that was because all my life, I always lost weight when I was stressed in the first place....so it was just natural that a long term situation that normally would have caused weight loss ended up causing Anorexia.....not until I've been able to process the things that bother me in my life that triggered the anorexia have I been able to "move on".

Not easy & not uncomplicated IMO.