[MisguidedGhosts]

I've been recovered from anorexia for about five years now. I constantly have the struggle but it's pretty easy to control until recently. I got married about a year ago. Ever since I got Married I've been eating more. You see I grew up in a very poorfamily and we didn't have a whole lot of money to buy food. Once I was married I had access to food whenever I wanted it for the first time in my life, I have put on 20 pounds in the past 4 months and I hate who I see when I look in the mirror. I've tried everything f can think of to help my self confidence. F we Kept my skin clear, whitened my teeth, and got my hair cut but I still hate how I look. I've grown out of all of my clothing for the first time Since 7th grade. . my husband and My friend tell me Constantly that I look good and" healthy" but I don't see it. I can literally see the Cellulite under my skin and I hate it. I tried working out to "be in shape" but I still feel like my body is disgusting. I need help.

[MisguidedGhosts]

Also I haven't been in therapy since I left College, He was the nicest T I have met and I don't think Anyone could live up to him.

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[MisguidedGhosts]

Update. I had someone tell me to try and start over. Out with the old and in with the new. I'm going to try to get rid of all my old clothing and try to raise my self confidence in clothing I feel comfortable and confident in.

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[eskielover]

Without focusing on weight but eating healthy....just make sure that you don't swing in the opposite direction.....as it can be just as bad in its own way as being too thin......if you need to contact a nutritions or anyone who you can be accountable to......it will keep you at that healthy weight which is VERY IMPORTANT for our health.....& we can do it without being either of the 2 extremes......

Take CARE!!!!!!!!

[MisguidedGhosts]

Thanks. I told a friend and my husband and together they are trying. Its just hard because theres a huge part of me that can still hide it so well. It also doesnt help that I have chronic pancreatitis which makes me very ill at times for no reason. Its hard to stay at a healthy weight with it too. Its so hard to remind myself that I need the weight and not to go with the disease

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[Astridetal]

Originally Posted by MisguidedGhosts

Update. I had someone tell me to try and start over. Out with the old and in with the new. I'm going to try to get rid of all my old clothing and try to raise my self confidence in clothing I feel comfortable and confident in.

That's a very good choice. I don't have anorexia but I have other eating issues, mostly with binging, and have put on a lot of weight too. Since I bought new clothes I've been feeling much more confident about myself. I'm overweight so technically it wouldn't hurt if I lost weight, but trying to lose weight often triggers unheaalthy eating habits with me. It's not healthy to be at the same weigh tyou was in eighth grade, so it's really good you've been eating more and putting on some weight (although I understand that twenty pounds feels like way too much).

[Fuzzybear]

[MisguidedGhosts]

My doctor will be the first to tell you how much I needed the weight gain but most of it is from a birth control they put me on when I got married. If it was gradual I would have had an easier time accepting it.

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