[DelusionsDaily]

I have had disordered eating issues for as long as I can remember. When I was young it was more overeating and once I got to high school it more toward the severe restricting of anorexia.

I was on psych meds the last 6 1/2 years and it definitely amplified my overeating, as a result I ballooned. I'm super severely restricting to lose the weight.

That being said, on one hand I think I should reach out for help I know someone who specializes in this kind of stuff, an old T(if she'd work with me again, we didn't end on the best of terms), on the other hand my disordered eating(I call it my alter ego) screams, "Hell NO! You have to lose the weight first."

Is there really help when the fear of "higher" calorie counts leave you with severe anxiety?

[eskielover]

You need help loosing the weight & if you are on the same meds that made you balloon, I would suggest starting with a med change even if you are stable, the weight issue is a serious problem that not enough pdoc's take seriously.....they just push drugs that keep the mental side stable while causing overweight & diabetes problems. Exchange one problem for another?

If you make that change with meds & then stop the overeating & start to exercise, your weight will naturally come down unless you have thyroid problems going on now too.

[DelusionsDaily]

I'm off the meds been off since July 2. The weight is falling off quickly. YAY! But only because I'm restricting so severely.

[eskielover]

Restricting is actually bad for the body because the body will think its being starved & will retain the fat overall & weight loss will end up coming to a hault & muscle mass will be lost rather than fat.

[DelusionsDaily]

The restricting is self inflicted. I'm working on getting it back up. I got off meds that hijacked my appetite. On meds it was sky high off meds the appetite dropped off.

[DelusionsDaily]

I meant is not self inflicted

[eskielover]

I had a pdoc that was trying every med under the sun back in the mid 1990's on me for my depression (he had no idea what was the cause of my depression or how bad I was feeling)......he tried prozac & it totally took away my appetite...to the point where I ended up in an eating disorder's treatment center & in & out of the medical hospital having IV nutrition for about the next year after that. He went from the prozac into the Wellbutrin which did exactly the same thing.....but for me, stress had always caused me a loss of appetite way back in my school years. After a few years & having massive migraines that I couldn't function with, my weight went the other direction then another major stress situation in my life hit & so did the anorexia again though it never got as bad as the first time, it was still what the MD's called life threatening & I ended up in the medical hospital again with IV nutrition. It took me years to recover after this last time, but I'm being very careful not to allow my weight to get into the pendulum mode......just sitting at a healthy weight & not going to allow it to do anything other than that. Living alone, I have no one to take care of me if I were to allow my weight to get out of control........so I do believe that we have some level of control over our eating or lack of eating otherwise no one would ever be able to recover.