[GreyGoose]

Hi everyone and thank you for caring about me so much and for asking about where I got to...makes me feel so loved and wanted:-)

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Well, I have been trying to come up with a good description of how I feel most days and it feels like I'm constantly walking around with a pot of coffee in me. I'm almost "humming" (like a live electrical line) with anxiety. Sometimes it's a low-voltage current simmering just below the surface and other times it feels like a bolt of lightening. My eyes also play tricks on me but of course I sit here each day in front of this beast.

I've been working on my new site (and all the hard work it entails) and fighting with anxiety so I hav'nt been around much lately. The Oxazepam is working nicely but I try not to become too depandant on it. All my (extensive) tests came back normal so I'm thinking perhaps they missed something. Perhaps it never really was anxiety in the first place (over 10 years I've suffered). Perhaps the test results are being masked by whatever disease I have. Maybe they'll find out when when they autopsy me someday (if that happens) before burial. Ah...such are the thoughts buzzing through my brain.

Anyway, a great big hug to you folks and tons of gratitude for being there for me and to Doc John for making this place available!.

[jmo531]

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I have so missed you. my greygooooster. I was worried. glad your OK. I understand how you feel. I feel like there is always anxiety under the surface waiting to bust out. Today was actually a very panicky day for me but I wont hijack your thread with that. LOL

I'm glad you have been keeping busy with your computer project. I'm glad your meds are working well for you too.

Missed you GG. Dont stay away so long next time. LOL.

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[Myzen]

Hi Grey,

I'll go along with the 'low voltage current' description, and I hope that the bolt of lightning is a rare event. It has been for me.

My belief is that we can gradually train ourselves to diminish the feeling, with help.

I always thought that we could never really describe the feelings of anxiety, that it was too subjective and private, but posters here have changed my mind about that. I think that we are describing the same phenomena.

I hoep it gets easier for you, Greygoose, you're certainly not alone.

Cheers, Myzen.

what a relief to see you posting....i was so worried about you......

GG, good to hear your voice again. pat