[lovelylovely]

I feel terribly on edge at the moment. It comes in phases. Literally I feel calm one moment and all over the place the next. I know I'm having a few problems at home with the landlord, bills and other stuff and it does indeed feel like I walking on eggshells. I'm staying at home alot, I've been getting more and more agoraphobic because the moment I go out and bump into someone, my day is ruined, I act stupid and they look uncomfortable and try to avoid me in future, thats my social anxiety. Everything seems so unreal, like a dream or something, especially when I go out. At least no harm can come to me in the comfort of my own home. But now that is being threatened, a messy woman is due to be moving in and her fiancee will be over all the time, I don't like him, he has little repect for other people's home and flicks his cigerette butts and ash anywhere. It sounds rediculous I know but I can't cope with someone like that messing up my little bit of security. I was out n about today and I was having some sort of intrusive thoughts and felt like my brain was going to explode. My cocky ex came over too and couldn't stop bragging about himself, he assumed and said that I wouldn't know what he is talking about with regards to his mathematical intelligence. I swear my moods are getting all erratic again, aaarrgghh!!!

[perpetuallysad]

I can really sympathize with you, I am having a lot of trouble with my anxiety and paranoia right now.

I hope you feel better soon.

[lovelylovely]

Thanks hun. I'm sure things will turn out okay, just alot going on right now. May do some yoga, that usualy helps abit. Hope things work out for you too, its all part of the crazy journey in life. Hugs xx
Drench yourself in words unspoken, live your life with arms wide open, today is where your book begins, the rest is still unwritten.

[Hippie]

Your ex may be smart in math but he's socially pretty unfeeling. Tell him to bugger off and see if that helps dispel some anxiety. Meanwhile, I'll keep you in my thoughts.

Hello, lovelylovely. Make it clear to both the women and her friend to clean up after themselves. If the boyfriend cannot use an ashtray, tell him he cannot smoke. Better yet, tell them your home is smoke free.

Good luck.

[embracinglife]

I like the byzantine's advice. And glad to hear you might try some yoga to help the anxiety! hope that helps. I'm glad you're taking steps to fight your fears and work with your social anxiety. Best of luck.

[lovelylovely]

Thanks guys, thats so lovely. I can a few tears coming on, its gonna be a lonely weekend. Aww, just trying to stay strong right now, talk about swift change in mood yet again. I'm sure I'll feel completly different tommorow, just going with the tide...

[chipur]

If you're mobile, do you have a place you can go where you feel at all comfortable? That could be at a coffee shop, bookstore, friend or family member's place. I empathize with you. Life, at times, can definitely suck!

Originally Posted by lovelylovely

I feel terribly on edge at the moment. It comes in phases. Literally I feel calm one moment and all over the place the next. I know I'm having a few problems at home with the landlord, bills and other stuff and it does indeed feel like I walking on eggshells. I'm staying at home alot, I've been getting more and more agoraphobic because the moment I go out and bump into someone, my day is ruined, I act stupid and they look uncomfortable and try to avoid me in future, thats my social anxiety. Everything seems so unreal, like a dream or something, especially when I go out. At least no harm can come to me in the comfort of my own home. But now that is being threatened, a messy woman is due to be moving in and her fiancee will be over all the time, I don't like him, he has little repect for other people's home and flicks his cigerette butts and ash anywhere. It sounds rediculous I know but I can't cope with someone like that messing up my little bit of security. I was out n about today and I was having some sort of intrusive thoughts and felt like my brain was going to explode. My cocky ex came over too and couldn't stop bragging about himself, he assumed and said that I wouldn't know what he is talking about with regards to his mathematical intelligence. I swear my moods are getting all erratic again, aaarrgghh!!!