[Squishflop]

I know this feeling is normal when going through severe anxiety, but I need to be reminded, and reassured a little.

I feel like I am going to go crazy. The anxiety builds and I am 100% sure that I am going to lose all sense of self and not remember a thing about my life. Like it will happen suddenly and I will go from (vaguely) sane to completely gone.

I know many will be able to relate to this, but I have this tension at the back of my head. It's to the left hand side and feels kinda of like a ball of tension.

This bit I do not expect many to relate to It feels like THIS part of my head is the part which contains the "crazy", and when I start to panic I think that the sensation that is there will spread throughout my whole brain and cause me to completely lose it.

I know it irrational, but when I'm panicking and on edge it feels true. And I'm on edge a lot.

I'm not expecting anybody to tell me much. I think just saying it out loud (so to speak) may help.

[ECHOES]

It sounds like a place of tension. I wonder if relaxation techniques would help when you start to feel it coming on.

[sunsetsunrise]

squishflop, I do not have to really understand something to know theres a very good explination and reason. I am sorry that you are feeling this. I hope that somehow you can find relief from it. I know all too well that anxiety is a pain in the neck. Yes I do realize what I just said. Sending huge blessings for you.

[Squishflop]

Thanks guys

I am slowly edging towards coping with the feeling. I think a large part of it is crazy blocked up sinuses and ears after an evil chest infection. I know that may sound even more crazy, but it does make sense.

Of course when you're hyper anxious every little twinge means the world is ending! The heart pounding means you're having a heart attack, and the pain in your left arm is not because you've been decorating all day but is impending doom!

I'm going to drag out my old relaxation techniques and give them a go again. Hopefully I can find some good ones I can share

[sunsetsunrise]

squishflop, there are glands in the back of your head, near the neck, that can become swollen when someone is sick, as you are with sinus chest, infection etc. So maybe that pain in your neck will subside as the infections do.

I know what you mean about fears when feeling some sort of pain. I have experienced that for sure. Become afraid its something else. Love the idea of dragging out the old relaxation tapes. Great constructive idea !!! Hope the chest infection and sinuses are feeling better soon. ((((( squishflop )))))

[Rhiannonsmoon]

Hello squishflop,

I'm really sorry you are so badly affected by your anxiety. When I am at peak anxiety I feel that I am going to disappear into my eyes and into nothingness. Sounds crazy I know but you posted yours so I'm posting mine. I feel that my eyes even though they are green, are just black holes that I will fall into as evertyhing rushes past me. I won't need to remember who I am because it won't matter.

It is so agitating and so unnerving that I wish I was totally unconscious and unaware of everything that is going on. Everything that is whisking my life and balance away.

I really hope that this stops for you soon squishflop, because I know how unbearable mine is, and I don't like the idea of someone else feeling anything like it.