[anjelmarie]

I had a really bad panic attack yesterday and didn't know what to do. I've never experienced that before. I felt like I couldn't breath and my head felt like it was being squeezed and I got really hot and just panicky. I felt like I was going to pass out. I felt like I needed to get out of the house in a hurry but I wasn't showered and dressed. I wanted to just run outside and get air. It was a horrible feeling and there was no one I could even call to talk to me to calm me down. I ended up turning on the tv and started watching something that interested me and I started to calm down. I also prayed! I have been feeling very depressed lately because I'm lonely and missing my mom who's deceased and my family who lives 2 states away and who I have been estranged from somewhat. I am trying to reconnect with them i hope. My few friends I still have are in the same state as my family. I don't get to see anyone much and don't have friends where I live anymore. I have my bf only and i am grateful for him although i feel guilty that i put him through so much. It can't be easy dealing with someone who has so many mental health issues like myself. I sometimes think he would be better off without me. Anyway I just needed to vent. Thanks for listening.

[sundog]

Hi Anjelmarie, I'm really sorry you had a bad panic attack yesterday. I get panic attacks too and they are the worst things I've ever experienced. It's great you knew what was happening to you and that you were able to calm yourself down. Well done!

Are you getting any professional support at all? It sounds like you are dealing with a lot right now.

Wishing you all the best