[LovesHorses]

Hi! So I'm new to this forum thing. I'm so happy I saw this website. I didn't realize there were so many people like me! Ok, so I have always done this but I didn't realize that it wasn't normal until my boyfriend asked me what the heck I was talking about when I was casually explaining it. So basically I can explain it as thinking without thinking. Sounds dumb right? Well it's weird but this is how it will happen. Every once in a while I'll suddenly "turn into a 'zombie' like person". I can have an entire conversation with someone without thinking of what they are saying. I'm not describing daydreaming. I'm well aware of what that is. It's almost like i keep going in life but my mind like suddeny goes somewhere else. Usually I'm seeing awful thIngs. Now, I'm not literally seeing things in front of me. But I feel like I'm watching a 30second - 5 min horror film in my head. I know I sound crazy but my mom thinks it's anxiety mixed with paranoia. (?!?!) sometimes im not actually seeing anything. I'll be in the middle of a conversation and "oops" I'll suddenly mentally be blank and then 30 seconds later im in the middle of a conversation that I don't remember being in. A strong example of this happening was when I was in a drive-thru with my bf and we were fighting. Suddenly I got into this weird "trace" and had extreme images of my friends car going off a cliff and screaming for me to help her and I couldn't save her...it just was pretty f-ed up. I came out of the trance after I had gotten my food. I looked at my bf to see him almost in tears. He never gets upset like this. I had somehow managed to have a huge fight with my bf in 5 minutes, pay for my food and do god knows what. I don't know what's going on here. Because I am doing this more often. I'll "pop in and out" of reality, I guess. I don't even remember screaming at him. How can I possibly be in reality and somewhere completely different at once? Is this anxiety? These phases are all stimulated when I get paranoid in ANY way. (which I'm guessing why they can be so f-Ed up). Please give your opinions. Anyone had this happen to them?

[Aunt Donna]

I will blank out while doing something, then when I come to myself, several minutes have passed. I have ADD, ocd, and panic disorder. Strangely during these times I am not ocding or having a panic attack which is nice. I think it has something to do with stress, but you need to see a professional to see what is going on with you.

[sunsetsunrise]

hi loveshorses, I am not sure what the explination is for what you are describing. I think you are describing dissociation. But thats a huge and broad catagory. I do agree with Donna, who suggested seeing a professional to figure out whats going on. I want to let you know that many if not most people here do seek diagnosis from a professional. Because then they can know whats going on and how to help it. Know what I mean? Often, usually, people are relieved to finally find out whats really going on. Because the not knowing or conjecture is more scary than the truth. Safe hugs for you. I am so glad you are here. Please keep posting. Because you have come to a place, PC, where you will get lots of support. Okay?

[Lexi232]

Hello, I do that too. I can say "yes" and "okay" and "no" and everything at the right time, and it fit with people, and not even notice it until after i come to. (usually i can repeat in my head what was just recently said, as if i was rehearing it or something. Sometimes only able to hear my own words tho).
I have noticed since I have been on medicene for adhd I don't have this issue at all. But once off of it, i am reminded quickly of it, and many other issues I have without the med. I don't know if it's an adhd thing, but i know the med for adhd helps me in that area of my life.
Like for the life of me, I can't remember what my nurse on the phone said to me last, and i'm too anxious to call her up and explain to her what and why, and could she please repeat what she said. Because all I remember we were talking about prescriptions, then I zone out, and all I remember is saying "yeah"and then I hear her say "mkay, bye bye" and hang up. and i'm left going "uh.. um.. wait.. hello? .. T.T she hung up.." but I dont know what i said 'yeah' to.
I also think, it was something I learnt as a kid to survive, as my parent would require responses from me while degrading me and stuff. So, it was kinda my only way to make it out with a chance of not leaving the place insane.