[LittleForgetMeNot]

I just had a wave of emotion, a sudden rush of worrying, cried, scared out of my mind of a worst case scenario (that the guy I like doesn't like me at all and is just playing with my emotions for the hell of it). This isn't even in his personality, I've known him for a while so I know.. but a little thing happened, he stopped responding on msn. He first told me that he had nothing more to do so we could talk, bu then a moment later, a friend who's a girl showed up at his house (which hit me hard) and suddenly I'm invisible. He wont respond, he's not saying anything, it's scaring me shitless. A friend of mine is pleading with me to calm down as I'm just exploding with all this hyper-negativity, I want to cry, feel like I'm gonna get sick, the tremblings are making it almost impossible to talk properly... but my mind is racing and I can't stop all the horrible things that could happen.. I want to run away, stop talking to the guy I like so I wouldn't have to be humiliated when he comes back and tells me it was all a lie... But I'm being told I can't just jump to a conclusion and run away, but it's so much easier that way.. I don't think I could take another break up or whatever it would be, I feel like my mental stability will shatter if I go through that again.. I'm scared of what I might find out..

[sundog]

(((((LittleForgetMeNot)))))) I'm sorry you're going through this turmoil. Dating/relationships can be such a minefield. Is there anyone in real life - a professional - who you can talk through some of your anxieties with?

[LittleForgetMeNot]

thanks, and yeah, I am surrounded by a lot of professionals but I barely know them and there are some things I'm just afraid of saying. I know they're there to help me and things wont get better unless I speak up.. but something always keeps my mouth shut when it's time to talk.

[Leed]

Hi ~ You're going to have to decide to trust your therapist or he won't be able to help you. Sure it's hard to open up and "bare" yourself -- but if you don't, then you're going to be all alone with your feelings and have no one understand you.

My last therapist was a psychologist and she was GREAT. I told her everything -- and she really was able to help me more than any other therapist ever had because I opened up completely. I felt I could trust her - so I didn't mind telling her. If YOU feel you can trust your therapist, then go ahead and tell him stuff. He/she will NOT betray you. They can't - it's against the law.

We always think that what we're going to find out will kill us -- but it never does. It just hurts for awhile - and then we heal. But please talk to your therapist. It WILL do you a lot of good. God bless and take care of yourself. Hugs, Lee

[Mustkeepjob32]

Even for the most stable person in this world, love and relationships can be heartbreaking and downright painful. For us with mental issues, it can be totally unbearable. I agree with the above posters, to open up to your therapist. Also, keep posting here or somewhere so you know you at least have an outlet for your emotions.