[Lexicon78]

I'm not depressed, don't feel very anxious or anything, but I thought maybe this fit best here. Ok, lately I've been having the feeling that I do not want to go to partial...or really anywhere. I feel very pressured into doing these things and really don't want to do them.

I've decided that maybe this is the beginning of a major problem! I know that sometimes people just feel like being lazy and everything, but I don't think that's it. Every time I even think of leaving the house I feel so tense everywhere...much like you do when you are about to scream and explode everywhere. I'm really trying to do all that I'm supposed to do...maybe I just want to be left alone for awhile.

I called off partial today because I didn't feel like going. Last week I only went one day. Thursday I just had a major migraine and really couldn't do anything. but I'm doing ok now except for the not leaving the house thing. I feel like I'm doing pretty well, except for this.

Lex, you gotta get outside. Sit on the front/back steps or walk a few blocks down and back up again.
Staying in for too long will depress you. I know it's cold out today but it's also envigorating and the sun is shining. Bundle up and go for a quick walk. Force yourself to. You'll feel a bit better after you have-even if you don't think you feel bad. You'll definetly feel a little happier.

[allthegirls6]

Lex, I think its a good idea to get out if you can. Staying at home may feel safe, but its all happening outside. You need to fill those lungs of yours with fresh air and feel the breeze on your little face. Even if its only for an hour in the park

Atg

[jmo531]

Lex,

I understand this feeling all to well. I spent a period of time being terrified to leave the house and even at points I couldnt even look out the windows. I spent weeks like this until it was time for me to see my T. Even then, I couldnt go alone. HUbby went with me. When it was over I went straight back to the house and didnt leave until the next week. I know how difficult this can be. It is a fear that not many can really understand. However, the bright side is that it can change.

Like the others said above getting out is really what you need but to push yourself could also set you back so you gotta take it slow.....baby steps. We are all familier with that right?

I would start with a few minutes a day for a few days of just sitting on the steps righ outside the front door. Only about 5 minutes or so. Increase it by 1-2 minutes per day. After a week, try walking to the mail box. Dont go past the mail box for a few days. After that, make gradual step further and further along. Remember, the key is not to push yourself. If you make yourself do too much at once, it can set you back even further so please, be easy and gentle with yourself. Your not alone. So many people experience what you are experiencing.

Perhaps listing your fears would also help. I know that I journaled so much during that period of time. Although it was difficult and painful at times, it did help me identify certain triggers which I was either able to avoid or deal with little by little.

Please keep us posted, LEX.

Take good care of yourself.

Big huggles,

Jen