constant guilt over weird stuff

Hello, everyone (first post here) -

I have been diagnosed with GAD, and I also suffer from depression from time to time. I suspect I have some other problems that have not been properly diagnosed. I am currently not seeking professional help as I am uninsured.

Anyway, here's my issue: I have guilt over the oddest things, day in and day out. It consumes so much of my brain power. I would like to know if anyone else experiences something similar to this, and if so, what you do.

What I'm plagued by is guilt over using technology - I feel like I'm cheating by using technology. I feel like I should do everything the "hard" or "old-fashioned" way. I realize that this sounds absolutely absurd, and I try to quiet these thoughts by telling myself this, but it never works. I know this sounds silly but it causes me a great deal of stress, and I'm obsessed with it.

The only way I'd be able to get rid of this would be to move to Amish country, wash my clothes on a washboard, chuck the iPod and the laptop, do any research by trudging to the library, and growing and cooking all of my food, etc etc. But if I lived that way I'd never have the time to do anything creative.

Am I a total basketcase or what?

TIAV

I think it is the anxiety working on you. Guilt is my worst enemy. And it is hard to squelch. I could come over with some sour cream cookies and tea...we can just sit and talk. xoxoxo pat

Wintergreen, Hi, did you know that if you take a piece of wintergreen candy into a dark room, in front of a mirror, and bite down hard on it, you can see sparks in your mouth?

Sounds to me like a lack of balance in your life. Have you a hobby that involves something old fashioned?? Knitting, gardening, mending your clothes, whittling, cooking from scratch? Try adding "Amish Time" to your regular life. You could get a book that describes daily life in a period you feel drawn to and maybe find inspiration. Best to you.

Thanks everyone for your suggestions. I was actually thinking of taking up knitting.

I've never heard of sour cream cookies.....

My Mom used to make sour cream coffe cake. MMMmmm
delicious!! Moist. It was big, like Angelfood, but denser with swirls of walnut bits Mmmm.