[danii24]

i wnt therapy and i need therapy. i will do it but im terrified of tlkn about things. im used to it. i find it easy here because im not sayn it out loud. the thoughts of actually saying it is scary.

Im afraid that the therapist will be patronising but then i do take things the wrong way some times. i no even when i do want to tlk i cnt my mind goes blank. i can nvr find the right words to convey how i feel and i always feel like im not emphasing how bad i feel when i speak.

I usually advoid docs because i dnt like the way they look at me when i do speak bout things so i just find it too hard. some times i do be mad with myself when i come out thinking why did i say this or that. i see myself as a whinger or taken up someones time that someone else could use. i nvr see my problems as important as someone elses. its stupid i no jus need to post

[Silent_tsol]

Danii, I relate to a lot of what you said.
Before my first counselling session I was a panicking mess. The waiting room was awful because I just didn't want to have to say things. Like you, I find it easier to write things out. Generally I think the first meeting, is really just a meeting, get to know each other, see if it's a good match.
For each of my appointments, I try to write out what I want to talk about before hand. I write it on my phone in case I freeze and forget it all, or I could even just hand her the phone to read it (it hasn't come to that yet). There was one time when I told her I couldn't think of anything else to talk about.....it was actually more that I couldn't narrow it down to one topic.

Don't minimize your feelings, maybe in comparison they may seem small, but if they are bothering you, they are worth looking at.

I'm not good with doctors and since my T is a counselor (rather than a psych) I find it easier to get there. I don't worry about all the medical things and I know she's not going to attack me with needles.

[gma45]

I sure can relate to what you said, Don't sell yourself short you said it very well. Just what I think but could not put into words. Thanks for your post.

[danii24]

tanx yous for your posts. i gt my appointment for nxt weds im jus going to bite the bullet and do it. . . . what the worst that can happen....stil nervous over it

[Silent_tsol]

Go in with an idea of what you want to talk about - make/bring a list if you need to. If she's not getting the extent that you are feeling something try using a scale, "on a normal day I feel 8/10 but when I'm feeling anxiety about running late I feel 3/10"

I've got my fingers crossed for you.

Good luck, danii24.

http://psychcentral.com/blog/archive...ut-in-therapy/
http://psychcentral.com/blog/archive...lk-in-therapy/