[Estee1]

I'm so worried and sad tonight because I feel like I'm not good enough. I worry about what people think of me. Am I doing my job good enough? Or do people think that I'm not very good? I worry that people think I'm strange because of the things I might say and do. I feel like I have written all over my head 'I have a mental illness." I worry that people think I'm strange. I just feel so abnormal and wish I was better at everything that I do.
I don't know what I'm trying to say here...I'm just depressed. Feel like I'm not good enough.
I feel like a freak. I think that people can see that I'm different. Or whatever it is that I am.

[dottie]

((((((((((((((((((Estee))))))))))))))))))))


************Hugz**************

Hey, my dear friend! I have exactly the same worries like you and the OCD doesn´t help... I know you and you are a wonderful person! You have so many good qualities! Wish, more people could get to see them!

It´s really hard feeling the way you feel now, but look forward... it´s gonna get better!

Here for you, always!
Nina

[hillbunnyb]

You are a wonderful unique individual. (I think "normal" people are hiding something...!!) Chin up, sweetie, it's their problem, let it go as soon as you can. Replace those ukky hurtful thoughts with self loving compassionate affirmations.
Even write them down and hang them on your mirror wo you see yourself when you say them..... and to remind yourself of them when you hit the dumps. Bumps 2 U )))) ))) 1 ((((( ((

i understand. sometimes i think i DO have a red tag on my forehead that says "i'm crazy, watch out!".....but i have to beat that thought down and replace it with something positive.......xoxoxo pat

[Lexicon78]

Are you sure you're not looking into my head? That's exactly the kinds of things that go through my head on a daily basis! I think we could be twins!

I don't think there's anything wrong with you at all. I just think that this world is too critical of everyone, even if we are doing things right and we are like everyone else around us. I think you're wonderful and that we could all learn from you. Each one of us has something to learn from another. Like I could teach you things you don't know about and vice versa.

Try not to beat yourself up too much and hang in there. We all think you're great and love you very much!

[wisewoman]

mmm, sounds like a place I know all too well. You are fine. Worrying just makes it show that you are aware of the social stuff that happens. Worrying less and living more would be great. You know, be yourself. That self could be anyone you feel inside and just go for it. You are not OCD.

[Beautiful_Pain]

{{{{{estee}}}}} I like you and think you are wonderful it that helps =)

[Estee1]

Aw thanks everyone. That's real nice of ya!
I just feel second rate and I want to give up what I do sometimes because I think I'm not as good as I should be. I feel like the biggest failure. I have stuffed up financially and I'm really feeling like a big fat loser at the moment. I have messed up and failed at things that I never imagined I would fail at.

[Scaryangie]

Awwwww!
we all feel like that sometimes. Also, more people have a mental inbalance than you realize and if anyone does judge you, you don't want them in your life anyway! It is hard because I feel like that as well but I try to just keep reminding myself of the above FACTS!

[Estee1]

That sounds good. I'll try to remind myself of that. I tend to keep it to myself in case I tell people who don't understand. Those kind of people only confuse me. They think that I can just flick a switch and make the illness go away.

[Hopefull]

Me too. I worry at work a lot about whether or not people will think I am crazy or something. If they knew how I think I would probably be seen in a totally different way.
I just want to stop being so negative in my thinking and stop worrying all the time. Or at least worry about somethink important.

[Estee1]

I don't even care that I worry anymore. I just let myself worry most of the time now. I'm tired of trying to stop worrying. I've given up. Everything is just too much. I just want to hide in a corner somewhere and get away from everyone.