[imjustme757]

Not sure if I am posting this in the correct forum but regardless....

It seems as though many times when I am alone, my mind races with many thoughts most of which seem to end with an embarrassing situation, either real or imagined. Once that thought enters my head, I will blurt out a swear, or perhaps a sentence like, "I love you (insert name)". I believe I do this as a subconscious means to "snap me out of" the moment so as not to feel the feelings the embarrassment caused, or causes, or to just end the momentary thought before it completes.

Sometimes I blurt out a curse word or I'll say something like "I hate you..". Other times I will say out loud, "I love you (insert ex gf's name)" or some other name. I must interject at this point that I am happily married and have no interest in any past gf's. I am also not supressing any deep down desires for my ex....believe me on that.

When I do this most is when I am by myself and therefore, dealing with the gazillion thoughts that race thru my mind every minute. Sometimes my mind is like a runaway train. And eventually, the thoughts come back to an embarrassing moment, or a situation I make up in my mind that would embarass me, and I blurt something out. Sometimes it is said in a soft voice, sometimes louder. On occassion I blurt something out and one of my kids or my wifes hears me and will ask me what I was saying. Most times I can cover up what I said with some kind of excuse about what I was talking about. One time I was in the bathroom and, in the middle of an embarrasing thought, I blurted out, "I hate you!". My wife happened to be walking by the bathroom at that second and heard me and she thought I was referring to her which I wasn't. So we had a big to-do about that. Of course I"m scared to death that I will blurt out my ex-gf's name and she will hear me and she'll freak.

These things happen to me most when I am really stressed. Seems as though the stress instigates the thoughts in my mind which in turn have me blurting things out more often.

As I've stated above, I'm thinking I blurt things out to snap me out of the thought in my head but I can't seem to control it. I have thought about talking to my wife about it but I"m too ashamed to tell her.

Anyways I'd like to know if this happens to you and if you have any techniques to control these outbursts? Thank you.

[Phoboxyl]

That really sounds like Turret's syndrome to me in my armchair opinion. Have you considered seeing a professional to find out what you are dealing with and how to treat it? Also, I suggest you tell your wife and kids immediately about what's going on. There's no need to live in fear since they will almost certainly accept you even if they don't understand. That's my advice. Best of luck man.

[gma45]

Originally Posted by JustMeinCT

Not sure if I am posting this in the correct forum but regardless....

It seems as though many times when I am alone, my mind races with many thoughts most of which seem to end with an embarrassing situation, either real or imagined. Once that thought enters my head, I will blurt out a swear, or perhaps a sentence like, "I love you (insert name)". I believe I do this as a subconscious means to "snap me out of" the moment so as not to feel the feelings the embarrassment caused, or causes, or to just end the momentary thought before it completes.

Sometimes I blurt out a curse word or I'll say something like "I hate you..". Other times I will say out loud, "I love you (insert ex gf's name)" or some other name. I must interject at this point that I am happily married and have no interest in any past gf's. I am also not supressing any deep down desires for my ex....believe me on that.

When I do this most is when I am by myself and therefore, dealing with the gazillion thoughts that race thru my mind every minute. Sometimes my mind is like a runaway train. And eventually, the thoughts come back to an embarrassing moment, or a situation I make up in my mind that would embarass me, and I blurt something out. Sometimes it is said in a soft voice, sometimes louder. On occassion I blurt something out and one of my kids or my wifes hears me and will ask me what I was saying. Most times I can cover up what I said with some kind of excuse about what I was talking about. One time I was in the bathroom and, in the middle of an embarrasing thought, I blurted out, "I hate you!". My wife happened to be walking by the bathroom at that second and heard me and she thought I was referring to her which I wasn't. So we had a big to-do about that. Of course I"m scared to death that I will blurt out my ex-gf's name and she will hear me and she'll freak.

These things happen to me most when I am really stressed. Seems as though the stress instigates the thoughts in my mind which in turn have me blurting things out more often.

As I've stated above, I'm thinking I blurt things out to snap me out of the thought in my head but I can't seem to control it. I have thought about talking to my wife about it but I"m too ashamed to tell her.

Anyways I'd like to know if this happens to you and if you have any techniques to control these outbursts? Thank you.

Talk with your family and also see a dr. If it happens when you are stressed it is likely to happen more if you don't talk with someone! Nothing to be ashamed about. We all have things going on in our heads that we don't understand!

[imjustme757]

OK. Thanks for your suggestions. Much appreciated.

[lynn P.]

Yes I agree to discuss this with your doctor. I suspect you're dealing with 'intrusive thoughts' linked to obsessive thinking which is a branch of OCD. Do you have any other compulsive actions that you have trouble controlling? The trick is, not getting upset or trying to repress the thoughts. Just because you're thinking about an embarrassing situation, doesn't mean you have the 'intention' to act on it. If the thought of eating garbage pops in my mind - it doesn't mean I want to eat it. Since these thoughts come when you're stressed - this is your minds ways of soothing yourself, although it doesn't feel soothing. Let your doctor know rather than worrying about it.

[imjustme757]

Originally Posted by lynn P.

Yes I agree to discuss this with your doctor. I suspect you're dealing with 'intrusive thoughts' linked to obsessive thinking which is a branch of OCD. Do you have any other compulsive actions that you have trouble controlling? The trick is, not getting upset or trying to repress the thoughts. Just because you're thinking about an embarrassing situation, doesn't mean you have the 'intention' to act on it. If the thought of eating garbage pops in my mind - it doesn't mean I want to eat it. Since these thoughts come when you're stressed - this is your minds ways of soothing yourself, although it doesn't feel soothing. Let your doctor know rather than worrying about it.

thank. That's an interesting view of my situation. No I don't have any other OCD related issues. I am somewhat introverted and actually is the subject of another post I want to make in this forum.