[OnEdge]

Sunday seems to be the worst day of the week for me. In my mind, it's a day for couples to do things together or family to spend time together. I live alone and am having really bad anxiety feelings today.

I forced myself out of the house with a friend to go shopping (my favorite thing) but lost interest when I got there. I'm also worried about finances right now because my T is costing me a fortune. I'm not working right now but get full pay at least for a little while longer.

While out with my friend, I had this feeling that I just wanted to be home again, in my house, where I was feeling like crap in the first place! I also have developed twitches - in my lips, my hand, my arm and leg. What's up with that? I feel myself going down that road of thinking that there is something physically wrong with me and I don't want to go there. Does anyone else "twitch"? I was also back to the old faint numbness in part of my face, hand and leg.

I feel like I'm going crazy. I don't know what to do with myself. I soooo need a good nights sleep and I haven't been able to stay asleep for very long, night after loooong night.

I'm having a very bad day and feel lonely, sad and scared.

[lavendersteph]

honey it will be allright i do get those twiches sometimes on one of my feet and i have constant numness in one eye and that right eys has been twithcy for like 1 month now all of your probs are just stress related make yourself a hot cup of tea and come back on tonight at 11 or 12 thats when most of us anxious folk come on the site to just chat till we feel better it could be something stupid and we laugh or something serious where we listen and give advice last night was a riot i was telling milly that i was going to sue her for brain damage because she aways says she is going to jump on my back and i say i'm running away i just ramed myself into a wall stuff like that so i said i'm sueing for brain damage lol come on tonite it's fun and maybe it will get your mind elsewhere love steph

[OnEdge]

Thanks, Steph. I'll try to check in and chat later tonight. Maybe it will make me feel better...at least I won't be alone.

[LittleMilly]

OnEdge...
dont trust anything lav says...
SHE LIES!!!!
well maybe i am a little cheeky but I'm sueing her for the amount of therapy and pysio... she ruined my back... she jumped on my back and screamed YEHAW!!! not nice lav...

lol

i will take revenge just you wait and see

anyway OnEdge... i twitch too... oh and i also hate sundays but if it helps i partly no how you feel come on when lav isn't around and you'll be fine... lav doesn't mean to hurt people but she can't help it... and im not really that cheeky..
lav can really cheer you up... have some fun..

LAV I THINK I MISSED YOU COMING ON BUT ILL PM YOU LATER...

hope you feel better OnEdge and sorry i couldn't give you much advice... im only 14.. haven't learn't much... other then how to get sued...

hope lav hasnt caused you too much pain

take care oh and coffee always helps...

Milly

p.s lav i will get you back

[heartspace]

{{{onedge}}} hope you've managed to get some sleep.

[JustBen]

Hope you're feeling better. It sounds like the shopping triggered the anxiety about finances. Maybe next Sunday you could try something that doesn't involve money? Maybe go to a park and take a hike or something like that.

[Fuzzybear]

))))) OnEdge (((((

[OnEdge]

Didn't sleep well again. Woke up full of anxiety. On a very low dose of Effexor XR - building up to more and it's going to take forever. Feeling discouraged. To make matters worse, I have to go to the dentist today. Fun stuff.

[Rhapsody]

Dear OnEdge,

I hear YOU loud and clear.... I do NOT like - my T and I was able to connect this with my wounded inner child that hated being left by her daddy every Monday when he went off to work - for he would be gone weeks at a time, while she had to stay with the wicked step-mother (she hated me).


LoVe,
Rhapsody -

[OnEdge]

Yup, Monday hasn't been much better so far! I'm trying to get out of this slump, this feeling of being deep down in a dark hole and never wanting to come out. It's SO hard! This is my third depressive episode - this time with a big dose of anxiety and I hope and pray that the meds will start to help me soon.

Do others find it difficult to get out of bed in the morning? It takes every ounce of energy I have!

[Sabrina]

Getting out of bed takes more energy than I can muster! As does going to bed.

I do so hope that you feel a little better soon. ((OnEdge))

[OnEdge]

Took my meds, went to the dentist, the sun is shining. I feel a little bit better. Was almost is melt down mode last night. I know what you mean about going to bed...I have so much anxiety just thinking about it - I wonder if that is contributing to my NOT sleeping. Argh!

[LittleMilly]

I have that feeling...
sometimes it take so much energy that i get out then just collapse. gets me out of school though hehehehehehe
meds do time some time to kick in...
hope you feel better

take care

Milly

[Azalysa]

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Do others find it difficult to get out of bed in the morning? It takes every ounce of energy I have!

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Getting out of bed is probably the hardest thing I do each day. I often wake up an hour or so before I need to get up and just worry about it.

I finally realized that my depression/bipolar II has a HUGE anxiety component to it, so now I'm regularly prescribed 1 mg Ativan to take 2x a day. pdoc recommends I take on about a half hour before I get up, then about 4 hours later. (I take it with me to work).

As far as the twitching, not sure what meds you are one, but Wellbutrin causes leg twitches for me sometimes at night.

Sounds like you're doing better now.

[OnEdge]

Just started taking Effexor XR two weeks ago at a very low dose but the twitching has been around in some form or another for MONTHS. I also take .5 mg of Ativan first thing in the morning. I wonder if it's just a symptom of my high anxiety????