[so_punk_rock]

whatever controls this universe has a cruel and ironic sense of humor. i have agoraphobia and trying to work towards having my dream job requires me to go out and meet people and even perform for people. i have an appointment tommorow that will help me with that. im really anxious about it though and im recognizing the physical symptoms of anxiety more than ever. my muscles tense up so much that they start to ache and i feel like i have a boulder on my chest. im not sure how else to deal with it right now but to vent in this post. i think im good at what i do but im still really anxious about my future. the fact that im doing it alone makes it harder. i need some courage and some confidence. anxiety makes me feel weak and i dont like feeling weak.

[dailyhealing]

Best wishes to you! I'm sorry you are having that anxiety, anxiety sucks! I don't know that I have advice, but I know posting your feelings is a good thing to do! I will be thinking of you at your appointment tomorrow, and hope it goes well for you! I trust you are, as you say, good at what you do!