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Apr 24, 2017, 02:13 PM
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I hope this is the right place for this. I have recently been charged with selling on branded items I thought were illegal to sell. I was also charged with mail fraud and wire fraud. I feel like I'm losing it. By the end of the day when I go to bed my mind is so tired that I actually fall asleep but I wake up early With the worst case scenario's in my head. I'm so afraid of going to prison because I'm 55 years old. I have two dogs that totally depend on me and I don't know anyone who would take them. I have to prepare for the worst but I can't shut it off in my mind. I have such total regret but I can't forgive myself. My mother passed away four months after they showed up At my house to take everything I had. It has now been three years and I was just charged a month ago. My court date and trial are not until October but My court appointed attorney has not given me any sort of hope. I know I'm a good person and I've donated my time to rescues including thousands of dollars. Right now I'm helping out at a rescue three nights a week and trying to find a job. The problem with The job part is if I get a job pretrial services will then call them and let them know that I've been charged with a crime. How am I supposed to keep a job if that happens? I'm so confused about all of this because I just want a chance to go on with my life and do the right things. I will never fall for the Scam again. I thought I was helping people and I was but I was not doing it the legal way. It wasn't drugs but it was fillers and Botox from China. Don't get me wrong, the quality was top-notch but had I realized it was not legal I never would've done it. It turns out that ignorance is not a defense so none of that matters to the federal government. I want to be forgiven so I can forgive myself. I want to donate my time and heart to the things that matter most to me. I want to go to school To be a veterinarian systems because that's what I do at the rescue and I love it. Please pray for me
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 *Laurie*, Sometimes psychotic, subtle lights, Sunflower123, Unrigged64072835
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Apr 24, 2017, 03:49 PM
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Apr 24, 2017, 09:27 PM
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I've found by doing the next right thing everything works out in the end. Best of luck!
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Apr 25, 2017, 09:55 AM
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Apr 25, 2017, 09:57 AM
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Thank you. I am doing just that.
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Apr 25, 2017, 11:48 PM
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Like Jennifer said, I'm sorry you're going through this. I can imagine how horrific this is for you.
If I were in your shoes, I would get a good therapist. Depending on your insurance, this may take some leg work on your part. I would also get myself hooked up with a legal and/or social services group which can advocate for you. Advocating is what you need with the caveat that I don't know didlin' really about our legal system (except that it can often be unfair). You may have already done the above. I would also turn to true friends and family (not just in name only, blood only but family in the truest sense) for emotional support. Financial support if you need it. I would also get them to write letters attesting to your character (character change if that applies cause all humans in one way or another stumble and fumble sometime during their lives). Main thing...try to stay strong. Easier said than done I well know. And keep reminding yourself that even those who appear to have lived the most "upright" lives, well, they may have not broken any of man's laws but trust me, they stumbled and fumbled in other ways. Such goes along with being human. Forgive yourself--and others--for being human. Please post again and let us know how you're doing. Some of us across the miles really do care. Anna Quote:
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Apr 25, 2017, 11:59 PM
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About your dogs...
I didn't mention them because I discount the human animal bond. No. In fact, I place huge importance on this bond, so much so I couldn't even go there in my earlier post. I was the list owner of an Internet animal group. So, yes, I understand about these dogs being the loves of your life. Please don't let your mind go over and over the worst (to you) case scenario. Anxiety will do that...oh, God, yes. Try with all your might to let it all go to a non paralyzing degree. Don't imagine the worst. Just do what you can each day to help prevent the worst you're imagining from happening. Will add...not in every case but in most, what actually happens is not as bad as what we imagined in our high anxiety state. Quote:
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Apr 26, 2017, 08:22 AM
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Thank you so much. I'm making plans for my dogs because they are more important than me right now. Their happiness means more to me than mine and that is the truth. I have to do what's right for them. I am seeing a therapist once a week and she knows my whole story. It's nice to have something to talk to you I just wish I didn't cry the entire time. I will be going to see a doctor and asking for an anti-anxiety medicine. I've never taken any mind altering drugs so this is a big step for me. My oldest dog is 17 and he is my ESA so it will be very hard for me without him. I got him after my mother passed away which was four months after the FDA showed up at my house. Thank you for your advice
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