[not quite right]

Life for me has always been a struggle. In my teen years I enjoyed fighting to ease stress & to keep people from messing with me. As I grew older I found more pleasure in manipulation and totally messing with people's heads. Most people are easy. And screwing with people isn't against the law. Lately I find myself losing self control when provoked & even letting myself act the same way. I came so close to ripping this girls face off a couple days ago that I am scared next time I won't be able to stop myself. I don't generally like people, but physical violence if for those who aren't capable of self control & that's not who I am. Our so I thought. I'm afraid I may be becoming dangerous & don't know how to make it stop. Any advice on this? I may be mentally ill, but I'm not an animal & I have children to set an example for. It came out of nowhere & don't know what triggered it.

[doggiedo]

Do u have anyone u can talk to, like a therapist to share this with? That might be a good idea. Hugs hun

[Benetduncan]

I agree with Doggiedo. Seek out some professional help to get to the root of the problem, even though it might seem it came out of nowhere. It's probably simptomatic of an underlying issue.

Best of luck and take care of yourself!