[onion123]

Wow. I don't even know where to begin. My normal mental state is that of numbness. It's almost surreal and I feel no connection to anyone or anything around me. Yet at the same time I'm so socially anxious it's crippling.

However, if I take a Xanax, suddenly EVERYTHING changes. My feeling of connection to society comes back, I begain enjoying the little things and suddenly I feel like a healthy, productive member of the human species.

I have a cousin who is prescribed them for social anxiety and he shares them with me every now and then. And when he does, it feels like I get 2 hours of feeling NORMAL and then boom, I'm back in my numb and anxious state.

The only reason I even could bring myself to make this post is because he gave me one about an hour ago. With Xanax, my mind can feel and articulate my internal suffering well. But without it, my mind is so flooded with anxiety I would never have the energy to post this.

Has anyone ever experienced something similar? Is there really hope? I'm in tears right now because the feeling I get from Xanax is so beautiful and NORMAL. I don't feel high or sedated, I feel like I'm a human being with all the rich and wonderful emotions and experiences that come along with being human.

Any insight would be appreciated.

[NWgirl2013]

This sounds like a problem you need to discuss with your own doctor. You may suffer from anxiety issues of your own that need to be officially diagnosed. Your doctor may then refer you to a therapist who may prescribe an Rx of your own.
Xanax is addictive, and yes, your body relaxes under its influence. (and I know you already know this) but ...your cousin is not doing you any favors & shouldn't be giving you anything. The good news is you have a positive experience with this particular drug, so you can relay that to your doctor.
I wish you luck as you explore your options...

[healingme4me]

Originally Posted by onion123

Wow. I don't even know where to begin. My normal mental state is that of numbness. It's almost surreal and I feel no connection to anyone or anything around me.

However, if I take a Xanax, suddenly EVERYTHING changes. My feeling of connection to society comes back, I begain enjoying the little things and suddenly I feel like a healthy, productive member of the human species.

With Xanax, my mind can feel and articulate my internal suffering well. But without it, my mind is so flooded with anxiety I would never have the energy to post this.

Has anyone ever experienced something similar? Is there really hope? I'm in tears right now because the feeling I get from Xanax is so beautiful and NORMAL.
Any insight would be appreciated.

I have Xanax, as an as needed prescription med, for my anxiety. I don't feel any of those things, that you mention. It's not a mood enhancer.

I'd recommend speaking to a doctor, about these feelings of disconnect.

Being able to think/feel more clearly, on Xanax, is not what the med is used to treat.

[Saint Vicky]

Wow. I have the same reaction. Of course, I was taking them too much so I can't have the good stuff anymore Now I get XR which isn't as wonderful.