Whoosah...

Today I will tell myself that it is okay that my bank account looks like this...

I have to pay for gradschool application (~$200) and car taxes ($250+) from my savings account today. For some people that's not a lot, for me it is. I work part time and make about $3 over minimum wage. I'm trying not to stress out because this summer I just had to use my savings for the prereq classes ($1200 out of pocket) and had just recuperated from that.

But its okay.

I can save up more money.

These things are a necessity.

I've already paid for next t session, and just got gas. I don't need anything else.

It's okay.

I feel the jitters but i'm doing a moderate job of controlling them. Finances seriously give me more anxiety than anything else. I just always have this irrational fear or someone dying or my house burning down, and no money to survive after that....

Whoosah....whoosah... I don't know what I expect from this post - I think I just needed to reassure myself that it will be okay.

It sounds like you're stresed out a little maybe you could do something like read a book or do whatever you do to unstress yourself? I worry about finances all the time and try to budget the best we can, we're not rich, and we're behind one mortgage payment so i'm worried about that. Hopefully we'll get caught up in September.

Yeah. My goal was to catch up in September too, but I removed two schools (because I didn't have the money to pay for them) so since there deadlines are further away I decided to put money towards them in Sept. So October should be when I can start officially start saving again.

I don't really have anxiety, but I (for what reason I don't know) tend to link money to protection to survival and it just gets me all worked up. But at least I didn't cry like I did when I had to pay the $1200 (i cried for like three straight hours lol). I only have a headache now, so my anxiety seems to be calming down a bit. Good luck on your family getting back on track as well! Financial issues suck.

You're stressed but it sounds like you are accepting feelings and events for what they are and nothing more. That is good! I need to work on that.