I'm a walking Talking Heads lyric!

And that lyric would be:

"My God! What have I done?"

So yeah, I got this job. It's not appreciably more money than the one I just left after 3 weeks, but it's still more. It's in my home state. It's 2.5 hours from my sister's house, so I will finally be getting out of here. It's a big step up career-wise. I have yet to write a word for them, and yet the editors adore me already. They keep sending gushy emails offering to help show me around and telling me how excited they are I'll be joining the staff.

I SHOULD be stoked. And, for a while, I was. And now, all I can think is -- I am taking on something I'm not sure I can do, in a minuscule town, in a part of the state I had never set foot in before I went to the interview, and I don't know a single, solitary soul. I mean, for the last 6 months I have ached to have my life and my privacy back, but we are talking well and truly ALONE here. I'm not handling it well!!!

What made me think this was a good idea, or that I could do this job? I was happy where I was, doing something I knew how to do in my sleep. I have relatives and friends in the area here. I am throwing that all away. And frankly, I am too stinkin' old to be starting over!!!

Oy. Two weeks from tonight I will be there to stay. I couldn't get an appointment to get Internet, etc hooked up till the 30th, and everyone is going to leave me on the 28th, and I'm going to be 100 percent, absolutely, positively, completely ALONE, without even the capability to come here for reassurance.

If someone can figure out WTF I was thinking, would you please let me know?

Okay, Poopiebear breathe deep, your just reacting to "THE BIG CHANGE IN YOUR LIFE" it will get better, your NOT to old, your safety net has been removed , you can do this
Angie

((((((((Angie))))))))) I hope you're right! I just am not sure about this at all!

BTW, I think I will ask MP to make me a sig that says "Poopiebear."

I am sure it is just the "new change jitters"...You will make friends where you are...I am sure...You already said they like you there! Don't worry things will settle down and then on the weekends you could always go home for a visit until you make your own life there!!! Try not to worry!!!

(((((((((( Candy ))))))))))




Fuzzy

Oh, Fuzzy, thank you for the hugs. A friend helped me move everything we could pack in our cars today -- pretty much all that's left is some CDs and the minimal furniture I'm taking (and my computer!).

In 6 months, I have moved from a city of well over 500,000 people, to one of 93,000 people, and a week from tomorrow I will be a permanent resident of a town of ***13,000.*** I don't know how I'm going to stand the culture shock. I don't know how I'm going to stand going somewhere I don't know one single soul. I'm terrified about starting this job that I'm not convinced I can do. Believe me, I need hugs!!



candy

Try not to worry too much Candybear, though it is easier said than done. It *is* a big change after all and changes are scary, by god don't I know that.

If it helps, maybe focus on the bigger picture (or positives) - e.g. moving out from your sisters. independence etc. Hopefully you'll be happier there once you've settled in - and your employers seem to like you as well. Good luck with it all!

Change is always hard even when you want to change. At least you are making a positive step forward. It's not just, "Same as it ever was, same as it ever was..." ;-)

RainbowFaerie