[dawnlisa30]

it will be cloudy in my head but hopefully it will clear up later on today. i dont know what im so aggravated about but i am and nothing is going on. its like my brain keeps telling me everything is going wrong or something terrible is going on. i cant relax because my head wont let me. i finally fell asleep at 5 am but got up at 9: 30 this morning. i know im tired but cant go to sleep because my head and body wont let me. ive been off of my medication for 2 weeks now but in 2 days i can so get my script filled. i need to talk to someone but dont go c my dr til friday. i was sappose to call him yesterday but forgot.. grrrrr. i really need some help. i feel like no one understands me or even wants to. i dont cant talk to the person i live with because im scared ill say the wrong thing and get yelled at so i just hold my anxiety in. i feel like there r monsters in my head. i want this all to STOP but it wont. i want to cry. im sorry im all over the place but my head doesnt let me think straight. and i know thats how i am when i talk too. i live in a city and state where i dont know anyone except the person i live with and the thought of meeting or talking to strangers gives me panic attacks like u wouldnt believe. i just want to curl up in a ball and cry. i feel so alone.

[fraiser]

Well here I am. You can talk to me, look at forums, read people's posts, post some more, anything but going over and over things in your head. Write down the things that are bothering you. Once you do that they seem more manageable and stop swirling in your brain. I'm glad you are here. Keep busy reading other people's thoughts and put some positivity in your head. Good luck. Take care of yourself.

[Fuzzybear]