[InhaleExhale13]

Well, tomorrow is the day. It is my very first day at my new job. As of right now I am trying my best not to psych myself out about it. I want to continue to be excited. I don't want to begin over-thinking and over-analyzing everything that could possibly go wrong.

But it doesn't mean those thoughts aren't present at all.

They're in the back of my mind now. But I know when I wake-up in the morning they're going to be even more present and alive. I'm scared. I'm an anxious wreck. I don't want to mess up and be looked at as a failure. It's taken me way too long to even begin to think of myself as decent. The thought of failing and disappointing my coworkers makes my anxiety even worse.

I know everything is probably going to be fine--I'll mess up a couple of times and I'll ask questions when I'm confused. I just wish that I could make myself believe that I'm okay with that, that I'm okay with messing up. It's normal. If only, if only I could absorb that information and truly accept it.

[marmaduke]

Well done on the job. Remember everyone is nervous when starting a new job its perfectly normal.
Let us know how you get on

[Frankbtl]

Hi InhaleExhale, well done (as well) on the new job!!!!
Remember as well that each of your coworkers have had a first day/a first week too. And they may have been anxious, scared, made mistakes too so they should understand and support you, just as you'll do for another new coworker down the line I'm sure.
And the responsibility is just as much on your manager/coworkers to see that you're shown what to do and that your questions are answered as it is on you. But you've got exactly the right approach in asking questions if you're unsure of anything, and that doesn't have to be/shouldn't just be on the first day either.
And you're going to be part of a team, everyone has their strengths and weaknesses, so while you might not be so good at something that's OK, there will be other things that you're naturally good at (and very possibly better at them than someone else!). Just give yourself time to settle in, learn the ropes, feel confident in what you are learning, and be yourself.
Besides you got the job for a reason, they obviously saw potential in you, so maybe do yourself the credit of seeing that in yourself too, it's there!!!
Alison