[zoeyrosalie]

So back in 2005 I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety. Slight ocd. Never stayed in therapy or on meds. Im going through a divorce now and other things. Alot on my plate basically. I had my first panick attack major attack about a month ago. Felt like I was dying. Dizzy, heat pounding, chest pain, clamy hands. For awhile before the actual attack I had been having a little chest discomfort and a weird pain in my upper left back under the shoulder.

I was convinced when I had the attack that I either have a heart issue or cancer. The ER did a ekg, blood work, even an exray of my lungs. Everything came back clear.

Then panic attack 2 happened. Another ekg. No blood work. Then I saw my regular dr. Ive recently been puton prozac and given lorazapam for any other attaxks. He also did more blood work. I think checking my thyroid, cholesterol, magnesium... things like that. All came back ok.

Im waiting for the antidepressants to kick in. But the physical manifestations that spike panic attacks have only gotten worse. My left shoulder feels weird, I get chest pains, my breathing gets shallow, I feel dizzy, very disconnected, chest preassre ,my jaw feels weird even. I CANNOT RELAX. I constantly feel like they have missed something and that Im dying of a terminal illness. Now Ive told my dr this. I told him Im worried they missed something and that the reason Im struggling panic is because of these physical symptoms and the physical symptoms are because of an illness they havn't found. He explained to me thats part of panic disorder.

I have tried so hard to meditate, I try to relax, I try to ignore the feelings... the the physical weird feelings are always coming and Im always feeling so disconnected and my breathing shallow and my arm feeling weird. I try SO SO hard to RELAX and ignore. Im guess Im just not convinced Im physically OK. Has anyone struggled with this? Has anyone been able to move past this? Can stress and anxiety and all that REALLY cause these physical things making me panic. Have they missed somthing? Maybe tumor? Out of the blood work they have done SOMETHING off would have came up if something was wrong right? Im struggling. Even when I try to fully relax and breath ... I just cant. Im so scared that either Im dying or Im going to be stuck like this.

[Marla500]

I'm sorry you are going through this. I know exactly how you feel. I have been very anxious all my life but lately (due to hormonal fluctuations I think) it has been really bad to the point that I just feel miserable and nothing helps except sometimes zoning out playing computer games. I take antidepressants and I'm afraid to ask for something more than that but I might have to. I hope you will find something that helps!!

[Disconnection73]

I know exactly what you have been going through when it comes to the overarching pain and feeling of impeding doom/death. I have had this for a few months now. It almost seems as paranoia and anxiety can truly take over once the person gets so caught up in their mind. I have had heart tests in the past few weeks (ekg, echocardiogram, stress test) to make me feel better that there is nothing actually wrong, but every now and then I still feel like something is wrong. When an anxious mind has fuel, such as an unknown pain or feeling, it is too easy to mistake it for something major when it is just a minor pain.

I understand how you feel about the disconnection/dissociation and always stressed/never relaxed. I go through spells like this and the only way I truly feel better is by putting all important things down and taking some time to myself, but even that doesn't work all the time. I live in a beautiful place and I find it difficult to always live in the moment and breath in the fresh air. Speaking of breathing, breathe work helps me calm down and maybe this will make your pains go away over time. It is definitely too easy to fall into the mind's traps...but I hope these pains go away over time. Everything seems to come and go and it also seems as the doctors do not really know what to do about this all the time. Feel better and I hope for all the best for you in the future.

[zoeyrosalie]

Thank you for sharing guys. Im glad I found this page because although I have family that supports and loves me they just dont understand what Im going through. Im so afraid of being STUCK like this. Today has been exacty 7 days since Ive been on prozac. I see my Dr in a week. I must say the anxiety has gotten slightly better, and certain physical weird feelings have not gone away but then have dulled. The only thing I noticed was a weird feeling like a sharp light pain that starts at my scapula (which I used to think was my heart but the dr said its not), then radiates down my left arm and I get a tingly sensation. Now Im afraid maybe this arm thing is a stroke coming on! (rolls eyes). I am very active and workout, including weights. I did some reading and I never stopped to think that it could be a pinched or damaged nerve causing thing. Man guys the over sensitivity and Anxiety makes everything so much worse! Some days I just cant function! Im loosing my job over this and my Dr. actually put me on disability for 3 months! God I just want to feel normal again.

[sary2283]

I have been searching for someone like me who has these exact same feelings!!! To the penny you are describing how I feel on a daily basis..esp..driving. I feel like the Dr has missed something in my head and there's a clot or something crazy but he reassures me no no it's anxiety on top of sinus blockage. I am so afraid when I start to drive my head will explode....crazy right? I thought I was having a heart back in March..nope panic attack..then last week a stroke...again panic attack. I get light headed heart pounds, dizzy, pressure in the left side of my head, jaw and cheek pain, neck pain shoulder and arm pain. I was put on Prozac about a week ago and klonopin. So far I am not sure it is kicking in and I may to have them up the dose of Prozac. But rest assured you made me feel better because we have the very same symptoms and I hope this makes you feel better too