[SheHulk07]

I don't know what came over me last night, but I started freaking out. I didn't even feel panicked, just extremely agitated and frustrated. Everything bothered me. The sheets on the bed coming off, my husband trying to cuddle, I couldn't get comfortable, etc. Eventually I went and laid on the couch, and fell a sleep around 2 am.

I woke up this morning still agitated and overwhelmed. I had nightmares that I had my baby and we didn't have anything for it. I let the dog in and she immediately dumped the trash over the kitchen floor, so I had to clean it up. I ended up cleaning the house, and then I went outside to try to deal with bills.

My husband came outside to ask what was wrong, and I told him to get away from me. I wasn't even mad at him. He went inside, and I figured he was mad at me. I went back inside and grabbed the keys to leave, and my husband grabbed me from behind to try to calm me down. That's when I swung, and since I was next to the frog cage/fish tank, I hit that and broke it to pieces. I immediately broke down and started crying hysterically.

This is not like me at all. I don't know why all this anger/frustration is coming out or where it's coming from for that matter. I've thought about it in the past week, but I never actually did. Until today, and that wasn't the only thing I broke. I also hit the window (didn't break that) and a picture frame. Needless to say my hand and arm hurts, but that's nothing compared to my mental state.

[JoeS21]

Reading your post, it sounds to me like bad stuff just kept happening (plus maybe you were triggered by something). So you ended up with all these emotional/chemical signals until it was just too much. Hitting the tank almost sounds more like it was a reflex or knee-jerk reaction than something you thought you would do?

Best you can do, as far as I can tell, is find a non-provocative person like a therapist to talk to. Take it easy. Do something to unwind and relieve stress and negative emotions. Also, try to forgive yourself for the fish tank incident so that it does NOT add to the chemical brew that, in all likelihood, started this problem.

I do NOT know you personally. My hope is that you can come out of this with the attitude that you are learning from your experiences at whatever pace, and build confidence as that works for you. Keep track of what it is that triggers you, and the feelings you get before an incident like this. You might call a time out if and when you feel that way again. Forgive yourself, and work on progress. Good luck!

[Steiner of Thule]

I've had days like this.

[~rider]

Seems like a pretty significant emotional event especially if it's not in your character. I had a bad breakdown a little over a year ago. Anger, confusion, memory loss. Turns out it slid me into a depression. My breakdown was caused by very high anxiety. Wish I'd had it diagnosed right then cause after that my bad decision making caused major issues for me and my family and friends. Good luck!

[SheHulk07]

Thank you for your replies. I currently see 2 therapists, and I warned my main one that I felt like I was slipping again 2 weeks ago. Thankfully I see one on Tuesday and the other Wednesday, so I can talk about it.