Can't stop going to ER

Disorder7,

The swallowing problems were the worse. I thought my air was going to be cut off and I was literally dying.

Yes, I am a HS teacher. I have several degrees so I can teach lots of subjects. I have taught English, Chemistry, Biology, and History to regular ed. I am also a special ed. teacher. For several years now I have taught special ed. A few times it was learning disabled kids.....but recently I have been teaching the emotional/behavioral disorder kids. I love it and the kids are actually good for me and want to please me. I have fun with them. Last year, I found a pair of glasses in my classroom. I knew they belonged to my big ol 14 year old boy in my class. So, I put the glasses on and was teaching wearing his glasses. It took him 45 minutes to realize I had his lost glasses on. He was at a 1st grade reading level when he got into my class....I pushed him and stalked him and rode his back all year long...he ended up at an almost 7th grade reading level. I really enjoy it and I have fun with the kids.

There have been days though that I wanted to scream. I had an explosive boy who couldn't control himself at all - said whatever came to his mind. Two of the girls in my class knew how to push his buttons. There were times they would set him off and when I tried to get them under control they kept just screaming over me.....those days I want just walk out. Another time, the school had the police come with dogs and do drug search. The school had no windows except on the top of the wall looking into the hallway. They called for a lock and teach (lock doors - no one can leave classroom - yet still teach). My special ed. kids couldn't handle a dog being in the hallway. One of the boys decided he was going to climb the shelving on the wall to look out the window into the hallway at the dog. In my mind I was thinking I hope those shelves break and he falls...lol...but my professional self said please get down now before the shelves break. haha. So, yes there are those days.

That brings back memories! So...you have to wonder why you have chest pains?!? Just kidding. It sounds like you are where you need to be.

Hopefully, one day we'll both get a grip on our panic and be able to stay out of emergency rooms! Lol

Yes, I love teaching. I can't imagine myself doing anything else. I especially like the kids with the emotional/behavior problems. I just have a special place in my heart for them and want to see them over come whatever their issues are.

Maybe that is why I am having chest pains...haha.

A few times already this year I didn't feel well in class. I straight up told the kids, if I fall over - please pick up the phone and call the nurse and tell her I am having a heart attack. They were like why? haha. I just knew I was going to fall over and the emotional/behavior kids would just go out of control and leave me for dead on the floor.

I really hope I get this under control. My dr. is going to do heart tests and stuff to make sure I am really having anxiety/stress and not something really bad going on with me. I am glad I found a great dr. he listens to me and he will e-mail me and answer me without a problem. I just got him 3 weeks ago and he is setting up a plan for me to totally make sure it is in my mind and not anything with my body. I think once I get tests done - maybe this anxiety will go away. Most of my mind is consuming myself with health related issues. I think I am always dying now.

This reminds me a lot of myself. Since June I have been to my PCP and the ER countless times. I have had EKG's, chest X-rays, & electrocardiogram done along with blood work. I have been declared "normal" and labeled with anxiety. I obsessed that I was having a heart attack for 2 1/2 months. I obviously have never had a heart attack but I believe I know what one feels like because of my terrifying symptoms. Chest pain, arm pain, jaw pain, heart palpitations, just feeling like death is near. I'm a hypochondriac. But unfortunately no one in my life understands me... They just think I am crazy. I think I am dying 365 days a year. I am on medication with no successfulness. I feel your agony....

Panicgirl13,

It is crazy as crazy can be. Then when you show up to the same ER - they look at you like AGAIN? lol. I think my last ER trip cured me from racing to ER though. The ER dr. was very nice and listened to me. We also had a good laugh about how many EKG's, CT scans, MRI's, Xrays, and blood work done. I had the MRI somewhere else and I was telling him I got the MRI and the results were ...and he stopped me and said..Normal? haha. I said yeah - so we had to laugh.

My first issues began in June when I thought I was having stroke - million dollar work up later.......nope - symptoms went away. Then they moved to my heart - so now, I am having heart attack - or so I think. I don't care if they think I am goofy anymore. At least I will get the tests and know that I will be living.....haha.