[EsotericNonsense]

I'm having a bad flashback, and anxiety attack right now, and now I'm angry at everyone who wasn't able to help me while I was dealing with my anxiety attacks in the first place. I'm angry at my primary doctor for not knowing what was medically wrong with me. I'm angry at my mom for abandoning me when I had gotten anxiety attacks that landed me in the hospital. I'm angry at the ER docs for telling me that young people don't get chest pain, and discharging me with no explanation when I was having severe GI issues. I'm angry at the GI doc for making my anxiety worse, and putting me on that reflux medication that didn't do jack **** for my stomach problems. I'm angry at my insurance company for cutting off my sessions with my Psychiatrist, so now I have to go to my primary doctor for anxiety meds. I'm angry at my Psychiatrist for not switching my meds when they hadn't been working in a long *** time. I'm angry at my ex for leaving me over this summer. I'm angry at the second primary doc I had for not taking me seriously, and I don't know what I'm suppose to do about it.

[Blue_Bird]

It seems you're not angry for no reason as you provide a reason with each situation you mentioned. I'm really sorry Have you considered therapy? That could help with anxiety and with these things you're angry about.

[Bluegrey]

You have had a lot to deal with, EsotericNonsense. Being angry seems a reasonable response. You say you are in the middle of a flashback - I'm still pretty new at all this, but maybe you are needing reassurance about these things (when I'm having a flashback kindness and reassurance are what I need). I hope you have someone you can talk to directly - as Blue Bird says, a therapist might be able to help you.

It's ok to vent here, you are understood. Take care of yourself.


Bluegrey

[EsotericNonsense]

Thanks everyone, I'm actually fine most of the time it's just sometimes I get all emotional and don't know how to deal with it. I guess I should talk to my therapist about that next time I see her. Last time I saw her we talked about more mundane things like my inability to keep up on laundry and get myself out of the house to socialize.

[Ozisl]

Expressing the anger through therapy or physical activity frequently helps a lot, otherwise people tend to turn it inwards, or direct it at someone who doesn't deserve it (like a clerk). I have taken to writing out angry letters to my psychiatrist and therapist, even if they aren't delivered.

[bipolar angel]

Originally Posted by EsotericNonsense

Thanks everyone, I'm actually fine most of the time it's just sometimes I get all emotional and don't know how to deal with it. I guess I should talk to my therapist about that next time I see her. Last time I saw her we talked about more mundane things like my inability to keep up on laundry and get myself out of the house to socialize.

Glaf you are feeling better. I find it helps to writee down what I want to discuss in therapy-because often she asks"how are you"and whatever was bothering me that day spills out...then we spend more time talking about it-and maybe it wasnt such a big deal to me but then I'm on a rant and 50minutes is up!! And I never got to talk about what was bothering me the other 6days