[EsotericNonsense]

Today at work I had an upset stomach and ended up throwing up outside the office. My boss didn't see me throw up but made me go home after I got back into the office because I didn't look good. I have been having stomach problems for the past year and a half and doctors haven't been able to do anything about it, and I'm damn sick of it at this point.

Being sent home from work makes me feel worse because I feel as if I failed at something, and brings back the anxiety I have about my physical symptoms.

I'm also having flashbacks to physical symptoms I've had in the past. I'm getting better at dealing with them but I'm still getting them.

I feel lost right now.

[Angelique67]

Have you tried sipping ginger ale? It can calm nausea. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Hugs.

[EsotericNonsense]

That is not a bad idea although it wouldn't have helped today.

[Bipolartist]

Your subject line interested me, "How do you hide what you are going through?" This is something I struggle with every day. Although generally my anxiety doesn't trigger a symptom like nausea/vomiting. In a cognitive behavioral therapy group, they always stressed how important it is to just pretend to be ok and the symptoms will pass, eventually. Last night at dinner with friends, my mind was spinning out of control. Somehow I pretended to be ok and got through, although it felt like hell.

[EsotericNonsense]

I feel like that too when I have my flashbacks.

[JadeAmethyst]

I have also felt this way, but as I have not been very compassionate toward myself and now at this point just kind of feel much more ashamed and embarrassed. I can relate. Good posting, thanks.

[A18793715]

My anxiety makes my stomach feel like acid is eating my stomach from the inside out. I just try to isolate myself. But that feeling normally only happens when I first wake up in the morning.

[Blues47]

I hide by not letting anyone get too close. I live alone and have a girlfriend that respects my walls. History has shown I can't have it any other way.

[HowDoYouFeelMeow?]

I hide my severe depression by acting just the opposite... smiling, making jokes, acting upbeat and bubbly. Lots of people that know me have NO CLUE that I have been suffering from suicidal ideation and severe depression. Interestingly, I teach psychology. When we were talking about depression, I had my students raise there hands if they knew someone that was suffering from depression. Of course they all "know" me, but only a third of the class raised their hands. I let them know that they all probably knew someone who was suffering from depression, but they were just unaware of it. I let them know some statistics and encouraged them to be kind to all people, because you never know who is going through a battle you can't see.

[A18793715]

Originally Posted by HowDoYouFeelMeow?

I hide my severe depression by acting just the opposite... smiling, making jokes, acting upbeat and bubbly. Lots of people that know me have NO CLUE that I have been suffering from suicidal ideation and severe depression. Interestingly, I teach psychology. When we were talking about depression, I had my students raise there hands if they knew someone that was suffering from depression.

That's how I am. I put on a mask an pretend like I'm happy and nothing in the world is wrong because I don't want people to constantly ask me what's wrong or anything like that. I don't like talking about my problems. There's 2 people that are an exception. If only I could trust enough for my doctor to be added into that duo.

[Juniebug]

God I wish I knew how to hide things. I've been having stomach problems since Feb. I've looked into everything, only to come to the conclusion I'm making my self sick with the unrelenting anxious and depressing thoughts I can't seem to make stop.

[EsotericNonsense]

Ok it looks like I have a bigger problem now. I have jury duty on Monday. I wouldn't be worried about it except for the incident I had on Thursday, and now that I think of it I'm almost sure if I go through with Jury duty I will end up with another incident. I mean I'm find most of the time I just don't know when the few times I'm not fine are going to come. I think it's too late to get a doctors note at this point. I really didn't think of the problem until today.

[A18793715]

It's never too late for a doctors note.