[Random_Girl_]

Tomorrow I'm going to school after 6 weeks of being off over Christmas and I feel really bad. I have an exam soon on speaking skills and I was meant to prepare that but stupid lazy me didn't do it and now I have nothing and it's too late to do anything about it. I also have to draw or paint 6 pictures and 2 artists copies for Art tomorrow... I haven't done that either. I just procrastinate to the point that if I try and do it, I have to cram it into a tiny time frame. This just gives me doubt that I can't do it so I don't try. If I do, it feels like I'm made of lead and I feel like crying before I even start. I would rather stay in a fine emotional state and get a detention than crying my eyes out and feeling and looking disgusting the next day.

Another things that makes me nervous is getting back into being social. I have spent pretty much all of the time sitting in my room not speaking to anyone. Now tomorrow I will be bombarded with crowds, loud noise and questions which I'm not used to. I felt so anxious the past few days and today I felt physically sick. I was going to make myself a stress ball to fit in my pocket but I didn't have the correct things to make it so I'll just have to put up with blu tack.

I don't know what I want from posting this. Someone to tell me they're the same?

I don't know.

[Random_Girl_]

I meant school in the title of the post :P

[Random_Girl_]

Hold up on the replies...

[BeaFlower]

Hi Random_Girl_. Hope that your first day went well. I can relate to your problems with the social aspects of school, they were a problem also for me. But maybe after the first days you'll get at least a bit used to it.
You could make however your stress ball, for the future.
About procrastination, maybe studying with someone could help? Or if you don't like it because you aren'tbvery social, you could decide in advance what you'll do in one afternoon and then really respecte the programme. You could write it down to help you. For this time, do what you can at this point...for whatyou ddon't have time to recuperate, try and explain to your teachers that you couldn't organize well the study. Hope that they'll understand.
Good luck, and let me know if these suggestions seem you useful, if you want...if they aren't the right methods for you, I could try and think to something else
Hugs