Really high anxiety about my therapist session tomorrow :(

Ive been seeing a therapist for a few months now (I'm 19 if that helps) and I was diagnosed with GAD and other minor things. So, since I have a hard time talking face to face, I decided to email my therapist after our last session which was last week. I sent the email, and it's been almost 6 days and no reply. Now, my T replies almost immediately so I knew something was wrong, the internet connection was horrible when I sent the email and I have no idea if she got the email or not. Thats why I'm freaking out! If i go tomorrow and she did get it, I won't know how to talk about the issues face to face, on the other hand if she didn't get it, how can I bring myself up to talk to her about what was in the email? I have an extra draft and I dont know if I should show her that.

Any advice to help me calm down ! Thanks for reading

Hi AnxiousGirl. Maybe you're still in time to send her another email and ask if she received the other one. Or if you go and she mentions it, you could say that you don't feel ready to talk about it. She'll surely respect your choice. But it's also possible that once you're there with her you'll feel mote comfortable discussing it. And if you ask if she received the email and she said that she didn't, you can say that you'll send her another. Or you can show her the draft. Do what you feel like doing at the moment.
For calming down, take deep breaths and think that she's your therapist and everything will be ok when you'll be in front of her. She'll put you at ease. Anxiety disorders often make you worry for things that will go perfectly well. Think that it's only for GAD that you're worried, and that everything will go well

I would take a copy with you to your session. Even if she has read it, it helps to have a hard copy for you to refer back to. This will give you an outline of what you want to talk about. I know when I get into a session I tend to forget things that I wanted to bring up and having a draft really helps out. I'm sure the two of you can work it out.

Hi AnxiousGirl, I'd say that there could be lots of reasons as to why she hasn't replied and PLENTY that aren't personal to you or the email you sent e.g. she's been really busy, unexpected/unplanned for things, she thought you might just like to discuss the e-mail face to face.............
But it can really be OK whether she did or she didn't receive the email.
If she did.........."If i go tomorrow and she did get it, I won't know how to talk about the issues face to face"............that's OK, she should be skilled in helping you talk about those things, in helping you express yourself, in allowing you to feel more comfortable in feeling able to talk about those things...........it's not just about you facing her/her facing you though, it should more be about you "seeing" each other and working together on the things that are causing you problems in a safe and supportive atmosphere
And maybe to kick it off you could say that you have those things (from the email) that she might be able to support you with, but you need some help to be able to talk about them.
And if she didn't get the email..........."I have an extra draft and I don't know if I should show her that"...........if you find yourself unable to tell her yourself, that's an excellent idea, you can show her!!!
So you see, either way..........it can be OK!!
And the calming yourself bit..........perhaps you could pull up something relaxing on youtube, perhaps you could do a relaxing activity whatever works for you and............perhaps you could congratulate yourself for putting all that down in an email/draft??!!
Alison