[Pinnamed]

In recent days, I've found at least three things that i don't know how to feel about, at least not completely:

1. The death of the wrestler, "Macho Man" Randy Savage, which i recently found out about, 4 years later. I enjoyed his work as a voice actor and was a bit surprised and embarrassed about going for as long as i did without knowing that he was gone.

2. The knowledge of Nellie Bly's existence: now to a degree, this really shouldn't have been that big a deal for me, but after making the connection to her and a fictional character from a movie that i enjoyed, I was a little thrown through a loop.

and, finally, the big one--

3. My Paternal Grandfather's medical condition; I'm ashamed to say that i just found out about this one today and am worried (even though i'm told that he won't make it). I already went through the worry of losing a grandfather last year, when my maternal grandfather became ill and was hospitalized, he pulled through though. But the issue here is that i never really knew my paternal grandfather (I'm probably the only one among my siblings who didn't), losing him without ever knowing much about him shames me, right alongside not knowing much about the rest of my father's side of the family or all of my mother's. Plus, my dad losing his father right before Father's day will make celebrating that holiday hard. I spoke with my mother about this and she said that, because i didn't remember my paternal grandfather, i couldn't really see it as a loss for myself. However, my concern should be for my father and his loss, which i can understand. Still though, the thought of losing a grandfather i never got to know shames me.

[gayleggg]

It does seem like sometimes we realize too late what we have missed. If I could go back there are so many questions I would ask my grandparents or parents, unfortunately I won't be able to do that. What you will need to look at is who is still around that you would miss if they were to die tomorrow and make sure to spend time with them now and not wait until it is too late. Be there for your father. I'm sure that he could tell you stories that would help you know more about your grandfather. Relish in the stories. They will help you through.

[Pinnamed]

Well, it happened, my Grandpa died, and as I said before, it happened without me ever knowing him. For all i know, he was probably sad that he never got a chance to meet one of his grand-kids, that just makes me feel bad.