[ktsilver6]

so today my anxiety was really bad. I went to work and felt slightly anxious. I had taken my medication in the morning and resisted the urge to take more. after work I knew I was coming home to an empty house but I needed to walk and feed the dog. I did so and as soon as I was done I jumped back in my car and headed over to my mom's house. my mom wasn't home but my little brother was there. He and his wife we're going out to dinner and they actually asked to go with them because I was feeling so anxious. I didn't tell them that but they agreed to let me come with them. all through dinner my thoughts were racing. I took an anti anxiety medication at the end of dinner. I then had to drive into the city to pick up my husband who had been working on cleaning our condo for renters. as I drove down the highway my anxiety got worse and worse and worse. multiple times I thought about

Possible trigger:

pulling off to the side of the road climbing an overpass and jumping off.

I was shaking and my heart was racing and my thoughts were jumbled. I was crying and afraid and alone. I called the suicide hotline and talked to a very nice woman. when i reached my husband in the city I completely melted down. I was crying and shaking and mumbling. I felt like I was losing control and I was terrified. I thought about

Possible trigger:

opening the door on the highway and just letting myself fall out into the middle of the street.

I did so many things right tonight. I did deep breathing exercises. I did a mindfulness meditation. I called for help. I took my medication. and now I am just so so so incredibly tired. I don't know what tomorrow holds and I'm scared. all I know is that tonight was horrible but I'm proud of myself for making it through it.

[Crazy Hitch]

I'm sorry tohear that you were anxious. I can't imagine the dinner was pleasant considering the anxiety factor. It seems to be really affecting your driving. And the physical body sensations that go with it are not nice to say the least. To me it sounds like you have a number of strategies in place that you do practice like the mindfulness meditation and breathing exercises. I'm glad that you made the phone call for help. Your body and mind are probably so exhausted now that it's the end of the day. Congrats on making it through the day. I hope that tomorrow turns out better for you.

[BlueEyedMama]

Originally Posted by ktsilver6

so today my anxiety was really bad. I went to work and felt slightly anxious. I had taken my medication in the morning and resisted the urge to take more. after work I knew I was coming home to an empty house but I needed to walk and feed the dog. I did so and as soon as I was done I jumped back in my car and headed over to my mom's house. my mom wasn't home but my little brother was there. He and his wife we're going out to dinner and they actually asked to go with them because I was feeling so anxious. I didn't tell them that but they agreed to let me come with them. all through dinner my thoughts were racing. I took an anti anxiety medication at the end of dinner. I then had to drive into the city to pick up my husband who had been working on cleaning our condo for renters. as I drove down the highway my anxiety got worse and worse and worse. multiple times I thought about

Possible trigger:

pulling off to the side of the road climbing an overpass and jumping off.

I was shaking and my heart was racing and my thoughts were jumbled. I was crying and afraid and alone. I called the suicide hotline and talked to a very nice woman. when i reached my husband in the city I completely melted down. I was crying and shaking and mumbling. I felt like I was losing control and I was terrified. I thought about

Possible trigger:

opening the door on the highway and just letting myself fall out into the middle of the street.

I did so many things right tonight. I did deep breathing exercises. I did a mindfulness meditation. I called for help. I took my medication. and now I am just so so so incredibly tired. I don't know what tomorrow holds and I'm scared. all I know is that tonight was horrible but I'm proud of myself for making it through it.

We spoke briefly last night and I have been wondering how you are doing. I hope that today has started off less anxious.

[ktsilver6]

Originally Posted by BlueEyedMama

We spoke briefly last night and I have been wondering how you are doing. I hope that today has started off less anxious.

Today has been slow. It's almost noon and i'm still in my pajamas. I am less anxious in terms of physical symptoms but my brain is still racing. Mostly,I am just so tired. Thank you for checking in on me. It means a lot to know that someone is listening