[bob101]

Hi new here and lookin for help or reassurance or something.
Not having a happy time at the moment.
Ive been coming of an antidepressant and in the last few days have been starting to come off benzo's.
Today was the first day I went out - walking a 15 minute walk to the shop with my partner - I couldnt do it - the ground was moving I kept walking funny - as if I was drunk. I had this overwhelming feeling of just wanting to get home. When we got to the supermarket I couldnt concentrate - I knew my breathing was all wrong but I couldnt handle it. We stopped outside supermarket on way home and my partner was so angry - saying how hard it is to live with and that its ridiculous the high light of the weekend is walking to the shop and havig a freak out - I was and am so upset. I know its hard on loved ones but its hard on me too -worrying about my loved one and feeling guikty as Im stopping us having a normal life - but my god what am i to do - the walk home was worse - i had to keep stopping and could not believe how i was feeling. i feel so upset and i dont know what to do. can anyone help me? please

are you coming off anti deps properly, as by diminishing the amount you take step by step? i know in the past i have had these probems if i've just stopped taking them without weaning off them. your partner maybe should be a litte more supportive as you're going through such a hard time. so sorry this happened to you today. if i were you i would go back to the doc and tell him/her what has been happening and ask for some advice.
we are here to support and talk to you, this is a caring site full of wonderful people, some probably identifying as indeed i do. please take care and seek advice asap.

love jinnyann xoxoxoxoxox

[bob101]

Hi thanks so much for replying. I saw my doc this past friday and she felt all was going well. but just today it was like agoraphobia or something. Im so down - im battling this and i feel so alone - i live with a wonderful partner but unfortunately has no understanding at all - i was told to try harder today (and everyday). When ur stuck in fear I know u have to push urself - but i am doing that - I just dont know what to do - i feel even my relationship is disintegrating.

bob, sometimes if a partner has never suffered with anxiety or depression it is very hard for them to understand how you are feeling. i suppose you've already tried to explain? if not sit down and tell them exaxtly how it is, even then it's hard for someone to understand. maybe yur partner could go to the docs with you and they could explain what is going on. i wish you the best, it's awful when you feel so lonely. i have 2 teens and a husband (just) and feel lonely even in their company sometimes. its like a terrible isolation feeling like you're on the outside looking in.
here if you need to talk.

jinny xoxoxoxo

[bob101]

Thanks Jinny - I really appreciate ur kind words. Ye my partner has been to all the doc visits and can be understanding - but seems t o have a saturation point.
anyway thanks again - ur very kind for replying.

you're welcome sweetie,dontbe alone. there will always be someone here to talk to.

love, jinny xoxooxxo

[Gabby2007]

Bob,
on the rare occasions my husband gets angry and frustrated directly at my emotional difficulties, it's generally because he's feeling helpless ~ it's probably at that moment more about him than me.