[edgpavl]

Hey, so I want to share with something I've been super anxious and paranoid about right now.
Few days ago, at some point I started to be aware of my own breathing. Like, the fact that I am actually controling ot, even if techically it's a body aoutomated process, I can stop it at every time I want, unlike let's say - bloodstream. I've been thinking about it all the time now, and it has really been awful these past days.
It's way past the point of just trying to not think about it, I've been suffering from similar fears my entire life (from time and from sleep), but somehow I overcame them. This feels like I'm unconciously making myself to look for something new, to tottally freak me out, and it looks like I did...
Right now it's really bad, I can't concentrate on anything else, I can't work, I can't think of anything else, I can't eat. I really don't see how I would ever be able to forget about this, and just embracing it seems very unnatural, because nobody else actually thinks about their breathing ALL the time.
I haven't visited a psychologist yet (I have an appointment tommorow), I went to neurologist like 8 years ago who diagnosed me with a Vegetative-vascular dystonia, and I've been suffering from effects from it ever since.
I know no one can really help me except myself, and some hard drugs maybe, but I'd like to hear some comments on this, maybe somebody has experienced similiar or even the same thing.

Thanks.

[edgpavl]

Can't anybody really comment on this? Today it's getting progressively worse, I am losing any grasp on reality, and am losing interest to doing even the simpliest things... I really feel like there is no way out of this

[*Laurie*]

Hi, I empathize with your fear. It is a very typical anxiety and panic feeling to think about one's breathing and become obsessed about it. That is, fearing our breathing will stop.

I think it's a good thing you have a pdoc appointment. Hopefully medication and other "tools" will help with your phobia.

[edgpavl]

Originally Posted by LauraBeth

Hi, I empathize with your fear. It is a very typical anxiety and panic feeling to think about one's breathing and become obsessed about it. That is, fearing our breathing will stop.

I think it's a good thing you have a pdoc appointment. Hopefully medication and other "tools" will help with your phobia.

Thanks, It's really weird because I don't feel anxious almost at all, like my heartrate is fine, but I just have these thoughts about, for example going to work and seeing everything and everyone from the whole different, wahsed down, gray and negative aspect. And only then I remember, oh yea It's because of this breathing thing. Obviously the cause for this is a lot deeper, I have just found a new way to torture myself.