[dcabana94]

Good morning all,

I have been hit with a large dose of anxiety. It occurred last night when I came home to my new apartment (have had it for 5 months). I felt like I could not handle myself being alone. I am terrified of my anxiety spiraling out of control into me losing my mind and losing control of myself. I am most terrified of having thoughts of harming myself or suicide. It really scares me.

I am not on medication, although I am thinking about starting it.

I tried my many different coping mechanisms last night, but nothing seemed to be working. I was very disappointed by this, and it aggravated my state I suppose.

Does anyone feel this way as well? Did anyone? What helped?

I appreciate any and all feedback. Thank you!

[kicker412]

Being alone can be tough. At times, I don't mind the "me" time. At times, I find myself dreading a long commute on my own. I have a great house with my family, but in some ways, I miss living in a college dorm with friends just a couple of doors away.

Try therapy first. Let the therapist guide you to a psychiatrist if you need medication. You may find some local office that has both therapists and psychiatrists under one roof, which really helps.

Medication alone won't do it. You need to talk. Talking here helps, but you definitely need a therapist as well.

Good luck!

I have had my bouts with anxiety. Living alone can be overwhelming when you think of the responsibility you have to yourself and no one else to help care for you. I would make myself so busy non stop so i didn't hear the silence. Then i stopped and fell asleep. We come to a place where we must enjoy our own company, write down our own thoughts and get to know ourselves again, rather than what others tell us we are. Medication for anxiety is a good thing. I have gone that route and it helps me stay level. You sound like you are doing the right things. Journaling helps to see what are your triggers, then adjust your schedule so they don't happen as often. tc

[nicoleflynn]

I got a divorce after 31 years abuse; what kept me there was the fear of being alone;it has been 12 years and I don't like it any better than i did on day one....but....I have learned to live by myself...I do have a cat; talk on the phone...music, tv......try to stay busy. xo

[continuosly blue]

Meds and therapy and talking to anybody. The main point is that I have to distract myself from what I'm thinking about. If worse comes to worse I'll call 911 and tell them to take me to the nearest psych ward. I'm not going to let being alone kill me. I'm still going to wait for "my time."

Heck, if I haven't k****d myself by now,,,,,,??? Went thru all that pain for nothing ?? Let "them" win ?? Hell no. Now is the time I get to know who I really am. I've lived for everybody else so far. How about living for ME now !

I could ID with what has been said so far all the way.
I don't want to get into my life story , ( maybe someday in a book , which I'm sure everybody here could do too )!

You need practical advice right now.
Listen to what's been said in the responces to your post. You will get thru
the anxiety and fear that's trying to kill you. This too shall pass.
Sometimes I look up and say " why " ??? Why am I still here , why do I feel this way ? I don't ask unanswerable questions anymore. I can still get some happiness and joy out of this life yet ! Maybe I haven't even lived life yet.

Post later how you got thru what your going thru now. So that you can tell the next person, feeling like you now , how to do it.

[smartiesparty]

i feel like this too
i can't handle being alone
i feel like dying everytime i'm alone
i take anxiety medication sometimes it helps makes me drowsy

[stewartmays1]

i live on my own have done for 4 years or so its been great but lately i feel really lonely i have lost my mum and dad to illness and its hit me hard i think if life is going ok for you living alone can be awesome.

but if like me you have no friends and mental illness it can be a nightmare just depends on your situation really