[lucami]

For past months my physical health gets worse and worse. But at least i started to fight with anxiety, panic, and agoraphobia. Anyway, I used to have intrusive thoughts, images in my head, feelings like something or somone invisible would be around me, depersonalization, derealization.. Used to, then it just went away, i dont even know when.. But tonight when i tried to sleep i had sudden image in my head that someones sitting on my bed and is watching me.. It was like a trigger that summoned weird intrusive pictures and images to my head, i feel so unreal, feel like going crazy.. Knowing my therapist he would say its just my anxiety disorder messing with my mind.. But it feels so strange, i again feel gigantic fear of schizophrenia, of losing control over myself..
Irony of life, i wanted to quit psychotherapy since lately the therapist annoys me a lot, yet right now i feel i need to talk with him asap..

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Have you been tested for schizophrenia?? There's quizzes on PC's home page you should check out. Don't be afraid of the outcome. Just work on getting yourself better and possibly getting on meds for paranoia if you aren't already.

[lucami]

Thanks RxQueen for reply.. Over the years ive been to 4 psychiatrists, 3 therapists, and they all said they think its all because of my severe panic and anxiety disorder.. I feel like going crazy but since i know that theres no one there, i just feel like someone would be, and it happens sometimes, not for a longer period of time, things i 'see' are only in my mind, i dont see this stuff for real, so doctors says its not a schizophrenia nor paranoia.. In schizo quizie i had 4 points only.. I feel crazy but its probably impossible to be mentally ill and act normally in front of family and doctors, isnt it? I mean doctors and the therapist who sees me every week probably could tell if im actually crazy?
I have prescribed paroxetine for my panic attacks but im terrified of meds so i didnt try it yet.. Ive been on different meds before and it was a hell to which i dont want to come back never again.. From what i read about paroxetine, it has lots of side effects and withdrawal is horrible for most of the people.. So getting on this is another problem for me..

[gayleggg]

Anxiety can certainly cause some severe symptoms. I think I would believe your treatment team. I think they would know if it were more serious.

I can understand your hesitation in trying the medication but you might give it a try. It might really help with the symptoms.

[Pink3032]

Its all anxiety i feel that way sometimes and i have to tell myself that im fine until my anxiety goes away.what i was told when you feel like you are losing control or going crazy distract yourself for example read ,watch a movie ,play a game something to keep your mind occuppied. When this happens to me it seems to come from out of nowhere and ill spends days worrying if im losing my mind.