life sucks again sometimes
When will it change
Back to normal, winges and whines
All just a game.

Maybe people can't change
What's it all about?
Seems depression always gets the blame
Just shut my mouth.

Al my life's been someone else
Now it's time to be me
As I feared no one likes my real self
Will I ever be free?

Can't lose this shell I've known so long
It's too bad underneath
Everything I do's met by a throng
of negative, insulting words, can't breathe.

I want to be accepted, loved for me
too long has passed
they know me as someone else
my chance has passed.

Things are good, feeling down
made to feel much guilt
husband went to work with a frown
many tears today i've spilt.

Been told I'm not the one
whose working all night long
feel i'm the one shirking
guilty pangs so strong.

Point's been scored, know how he feels
makes me feel useless again
Resented I'm not working yet
so guilt outweighs the pain.

NOTHING CHANGES Jinny

[sabby]

((((((((((((((((((( jinny )))))))))))))))))))))

I'm sorry things are a bit rough for you and the family right now. Pressure is everywhere and life doesn't stop because we are ill. (not fair is it!!) I completely understand how you are feeling right now love.

Remember that you are in the beginning stages of finding your health. Things do not change overnight or just within a few weeks. You will have ups and downs and so will the family while you are going through all this. The best thing you can all do is regroup and grab onto patience......the good will come in time honey.....it truly will.

Very often we take steps backwards through the healing process....it's ok to do that. It doesn't mean that you aren't making progress, it means there are things to deal with and work through to make it to the next level.

Hold on tight, it will be a roller coaster for awhile. Grab onto the good and enjoy it when it comes.....when the bad times resurface, remember they are not forever.

All my love and support to you and your family!


sabby

oh Sabby I know you are so right, you always are.... I wish I could give you a cuddle right now. I love you my friend, Tony and I are going away in 2 weeks down to Swanage in the South near where Selfy lives. we'll beon our own so that will be nice. We're just going to chill and go on picnics and be completely alone.
cant wait.

love you, Jinny xoxoxoxoxoxo