Whats wrong with me

I'm always super distant but more and more recently I feel like I cannot live another second before I burst or implode. I feel this pressure inside me constricting me and swelling form my core to just under my skin, hard and heavy, squeezing out every now and then when I lose it and break down but sitll remaining. It numbs me, it eats up my emotions and with every disappointment or anxiety i experience, the ringing in my ears gets louder and the pressure worsens. I dont even know if this fits in the anxiety forum but I've had GAD for a lot of my life among other things. So I dont know if its connected but I'm freaking out because I just want to know whats wrong with me and every time I want to be present and experience my emotions I feel like a freaking balloon flying away from myself.

Hello. Welcome to PC. I’m sorry you are having a tough time. Have you ever been evaluated by a professional?

Hello,

I can relate to what you are going through. I often have periods of time where I feel like I'm about to explode because of the severity of my anxiety, and it is super stressful because I have no idea what the do when it happens. I agree with Jennifer, have you been evaluated? It is definitely worth it to go on some medications in order to help you out as you work on the rest of it. Best of luck to you

I've been seeing a therapist on and off for like 2 or 3 years, less frequently now but like I said she just diagnosed me with generalized anxiety disorder nothing else. I feel like I fit that but it doesnt cover all the weird far away-yet-panicking feelings

Have you asked the therapist for ways of dealing with the anxiety and disconnected feelings? Can you ask her for ways that would be helpful to ground yourself?

Yeah and she's given me some helpful tips but they don't really help with the weird pressure/numb feeling in my head, idk.

What did she suggest?

Deep breathing exercizes, recognizing a destructive thought pattern, going outside and writing my thoughts down