Anxiety Daily Check-In point #5

Last thread had reached over 100 pages so here is a brand new one

and I was the last poster in that thread
I feel so honoured

I really do

Still don't know what hours daughter's boyfriend will be working Christmas Eve. I'm rather nervous about this, because I want to be able to plan that day and know what we're doing. It makes me anxious that he waits until the last minute to do things. It reminds me of my last abuser, who did the same thing and bragged about it.

On the plus side, everyone liked the apple pie so I will do hat Friday. My daughter is still making cookies on Saturday for her boyfriend's family's holiday dinner.

Try to work on new software to stay busy. So, yeah, that kind of day.

Anxious restless headaches

Feeling really tired and depressed, with physical aches and pains to match. Still anxious but this has sunk me to a new low.

I'm so impressed how well u all seem to handle this anxiety monster. Handled a lot of things but this anxiety is winning. Need to go grocery shopping but don't want to leave the house even with anxiety pills in my pocket, purse, car, always within reach. Course being in control of myself has always been my thing. If Powers that be r trying to teach me something, I don't know what it is but I officially holler Uncle!

Having a good day... preparing myself for a very long 2 weeks...

I'm feeling okay at the moment. Nothing extreme. In November, last month, I've been dealing with daily bouts of anxiety that go up and down. It sucks. But I still manage to maintain despite my anxiety.

I had an anxiety attack this morning. My stomach stills feels uneasy. I see pdoc tonight, I'm nervous. I have nothing against pdoc but her office triggers my PTSD a bit so it can be hard to go there. But she's a good doctor and I only see her once a month so I keep going.

Been quite anxious today.

Ugh...just angry and frustrated and sore. Trying to calm back down.

Love to everyone on the thread. Sending out big hugs, best wishes and positive vibes.

Doing better. Looking forward to tomorrow.

Hope everyone gets through the holidays with some peace.

I saw the therapist today and talked about a few rough dates ahead. She suggested I get a prescription. I haven’t been taking my pills during the day because I need to stay sharp at work. I just realized that I could open my gabapentin capsules and dump out half, and that may be all I need.

I’m going to try that.

Made cinnamon rolls this morning. Ugh, too much sugar. Now I'm jittery and waiting for this afternoon is taking forever...

I woke up from a dream, believing I had gained 60 pounds back that I lost many years ago, which gave me an anxiety attack. It took me years to get that weight off. I’ve calmed down, but I’m still feeling a little nervous.

I was admitted to a mother and baby unit for postnatal depression and anxiety. My husband has been abusive. I reported him. They have me on medication to help calm me. I can’t go home to him, I’m hoping the domestic abuse workers can help me but everything has been on standstill over Christmas. I’m afraid of how he’ll react when he finds out I reported him and I’m not coming home

I haven't posted here for a while regarding my anxiety. I have been in such a state for weeks; and now, I am in all out fear and stress mode.

My disability assistance is being cut off. The last cheque is for January.

I am struggling to find work. I need an income in January so as to pay my rent for February.

Christmas is over. Whew!

My husband and I are working on goals for next year. Like everything else, it's dependent on keeping track of things and having self-discipline.

I am really nervous about next year, though, so I hope outside influences don't ruin everything.

Anxiety growing with each new day. I am feeling less confident and more and more worthless too.

I have to find a job - soon. I received my last disability check today and will need an income with which to pay rent come February.

I knew full well this was a crappy time of year to be looking for one. As of this date I have applied for 26 jobs - and not heard from a single one. This is all very disconcerting and hits my confidence and self-esteem quite hard. What is wrong with me I am asking myself? It is reaching the point that I worry too that I am suffering paranoia and jumping to every negative conclusion that can be thought of.

This is not a situation I have ever been in before. I've normally had a choice of job offers. I am really freaking out.

I’m sorry you are having a tough time. Good luck and best wishes for finding a job quickly.

I am so sorry you are going through such a tough time. I was in this boat for a few months. I had rent pending and needed a paycheck asap so I could pay it on time.

One thing I learned through my job search was that the more jobs you apply for the better your chances are. The job market is very hard nowadays. There was a week where I set a limit to myself - minimum 50 applications a day. It took me a few hours each day but really helped me confidence - because the more I did the more likely I would be to get a response.
After that week, while I was submitting my 50 for the next day, I got a hit from the job that is now my current place.

Just relax. Things will be okay.

Quiet day today. Nervous but feeling a little more hopeful.

I only have 4h left to sleep but I can't stop stressing about tomorrow night. I wish I could just cancel all my plans and run away and hide from the world until like the 2nd week of January.
This time of the year is extremely difficult and it's triggering so many memories that I'm not being able to cope with

Was starting to feel better then a bunch of little annoyances happened. Glasses broke, hard drive crashed (lucky it was part of a RAID so I didn't lose anything), spilled coffee all over my sweater...the list goes on. Plus my sleep was disrupted and had strange dreams.

Despite all this I'm okay. I'm grateful we had money to replace the drive, and my husband used a nose piece from an old pair of glasses.

Happy New Year to those that celebrate it.