Anxiety Daily Check-In point #5

hi moderation

is it weird I thought you were another admin account? (you know, moderators)

welcome to the forum.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Panic_attack

that should give you some information about what they are- but with that said, it's diffrent for diffrent people (and for me, one of the worst things is not being able to breav)

I hope you like the forums

Yes I do ... they are better than my therapist who never said anything after five consultations

I hope you are better ... Be strong and overcome ... the body is a magnificent machine and can usually repair itself with a little fortitude..

Having severe anxiety and panic attacks over a surgery I’m undergoing tomorrow. Just can’t calm down. Worse attack I’ve had yet. It’s not even particularly risky. I don’t know what the problem is but every time I stand up I get light headed and my vision goes black. Don’t know how I can prepare for surgery like this.

Restlessness has returned. It's now compounded by a cold from another family member. We're working through it, but I'm more worried about my husband since he has MS. One day at a time.

School has also started, but I think I can handle the class this time. At least I'm going to try to.

had high anxiety this afternoon.

something that was meant to come for me arived half an hour late and I totally freaked about it

now it is quite low as it's all arived and all okay

So my anxiety is low today as I took some PRN meds last night. I'm a little foggy but today is the least anxious I've felt in over a week. So grateful to have a little peace today. However, I have no motivation. So which is better being a little anxious and productive or drugged and calm? I struggle with any middle ground between the two.

Finally starting to get over this cold. Had physical therapy today and working out in the pool there was helpful. Keeping busy masks over the restlessness.

We're getting a small treadmill tomorrow morning so the Christmas tree needs to come down this afternoon. We've been putting it off but now we can't. I still have lights draped over the mantle so I'm good there. I don't like waiting until the last minute but with us being sick and having appointments there wasn't much to do. I'm biting the anxiety bullet.

really high anxiety today.

so, thism orning I got an email asking if on monday (this monday), soeone can come and see me and talk my move to this new place in febuary (remember I got evicted)

well, it took me ages to respond because I don't want to know the day (i sort of do, but knowing it will increase my anxiety) as their are other issues to deal with such as strange people/ agoraphobia

but I eventually wrote back agreeing to see them monday afternoon

I just..... hope i've made the right decision.

and I can cope with the outcome

Anxiety is controlling me today. Someone has been trying to contact me that I really don’t want to talk to, but I emailed him and agreed to phone him today to get it over with....I hope that will help even though I dread the call.

I'm very tired of fighting the battle with Anxiety. Why can't I just be calm? I have nothing bad happening in my life, just the opposite but I'm scared and confused.
I just want to relax a little and enjoy my life. Why do I struggle with this.
I'm reading all types of things to try but I struggle to take consistent action. I guess I'm looking for a magical fix instead of the hard work it takes to improve.
I tend to do the minimum and therein lies my major problem. I think I have an aversion to hard work and so I'm stuck in this crappy mood where I feel like a scared little kid.

I talked to the person that was wanting to contact me. I feel a slight relief. It is strange how certain situations can ramp up the anxiety. The situation might even be as simple as having to talk to someone that 'feels' like a threat. The person I talked to was nice to me. I think I was overly worried about being embarrassed by the topic he was contacting me about. I did feel some of that and some worry about his judgement.

I have to learn to stop letting fear of 'judgement' and embarrassment stop controlling me. How do you learn to let go of that fear?

Been feeling restless today .. like I can’t sit still. Ugh it’s irritating !! I don’t have any anti-anxiety meds because the clinic I go to won’t fill my prescription for Ativan even though its the only thing I’ve tried that works. I’ve tried Buspar, Hydroxyzine, and Gapabentin but none of them ever helped. So I have to wait until the 22nd to see my pdoc and see if he will push the prescription through. I doubt he will.. he will probably tell me to keep trying the Hydroxyzine.. but it’s been a few months that I’ve been on it and it doesn’t work 😑😑

hopeful you will find something that works

feeling restless is never nice. it really isn't

(((((hugs))))))

Yesterday was a doozy. Our "small" treadmill turned out to be over 200 lbs! We had a heck of a time getting it down to the basement. My husband and I are so sore. I kept apologizing for buying such a heavy piece.

Had another early morning. Finished my homework for the week. Probably will chill out for most of the day and maybe take a nap.

My anxiety isn't bad but will know more later today.

Very Relaxed...

some anxiety about stomach pains, but other than that... I'm just peachy

Daughter's boyfriend lost his bearded dragon this morning. He had it since he was nine or so, and it was old. He was really upset and touchy, so we're all trying to soothe him and help him out. He went to work early to get his mind off of it, but we know how it goes. I'm concerned I may have some rebound anxiety that I sometimes have when I'm taking care of other people in crisis. I seem to be okay for the moment.

Other than that and pushing a bunch of snow off the driveway--I would say it was a quiet day, but it just hasn't. Made muffins for breakfast because there's no way we were going to risk our necks (and only car) out in this snow.

waiting news on the dog adoption. Tick tock, tick tock.

How exciting... What type of dog?

Still the waiting game.

In the meantime my military disability benefit was approved. I am really anxious - and shouldn't be. What if they deem me not sick enough to have been awarded it?

I worry about the walk to the meeting. The sidewalks are sheets of glare ice. I have boot krampons but am still terrified to go out onto the street.

Agitated...

My anxiety has been pretty good today, only flared up when I had to go grocery shopping by myself a few hours ago. I tend to panic a little in public if I'm alone.. but that feeling is gone now that I'm home. I did manage to walk to the gas station by myself today though. It was mainly just cold and my anxiety was only hightened when I was walking there. Mainly because it was icy and I was scared of embarrassing myself by slipping and falling or that a stranger would try and talk to me. I'm really nervous about people I don't know. But thankfully I didn't fall!! I slipped a few times but that was it. Overall, it was a good day for my anxiety.

Emotional rollercoaster day, so that hasn't helped the anxiety.

Hope that I'll settle down here soon.

Sending you good thoughts and wishes...

Well today was a good day for my anxiety considering I didn't wake up till around noon then fell back asleep for 4 hours at 1-2 pm .. so most of my day I was asleep. I had a hard time sleeping last night though, I felt wound-up .. had to take a Seroquel to finally get some sleep. I think the Seroquel is why I was soo tired today though, so I'm going to try and skip it tonight. If possible. Overall though my anxiety hasn't been pretty bad these past few days. I get worried though because I'm scared it will all come back at once then I'll panic and I don't have any PRN's for my anxiety anymore so I'll be a mess.