[Trustfromabove]

I don’t really know where to exactly put this but most of my problems see, to be related to my anxiety so figured I’d post it here. Now because of my anxiety I depersonalize. However yesterday at school it didn’t feel like my typical depersonalizing usually I feel like I’m in someone else’s body and someone is talking for me and my body parts aren’t mine. Yesterday I started with a rapid heart beat and my learning leader put her Apple Watch on my wrist cuz she has an app on there that detects your heart beat. Mine was 143. It eventually went down to 90. But my hands began to shake more violently through out the day. When I started getting anxiety it didn’t feel like how I usually feel like I’m surrounded by things that want to attack me. It instead felt like I was being chased. When i finally began to break I went into the break room to text my mom to come and get me. When I was walking in the hallway I suddenly felt like I wasn’t in reality. It hit me like a train. But I realized it didn’t feel like my particular depersonalizing experience. I didn’t feel like I was in someone else’s body. Everything seemed to look weird i don’t know how to particularly describe it. Like it was distorted. I began feeling as if I was in a dream and I slowly became more convinced I was dreaming. I kept thinking this wasn’t reality nothing was real. I had a lot of trouble speaking I’d forget what I had just said in the middle of a sentence and completely forget what I was trying to say or was about to say. When I had to go with my mom for Christmas shopping before my sister got off work I felt like any mi Ute my legs were going to give out and collapse. I felt like I couldn’t walk properly I had to hold onto my mom to make sure I was walking right. I kept obsessing over my shaking hands kept checking my pulse to see if it was going up. I tried not to think about it but I couldn’t stop. This morning it started off like yesterday but today I had something new happen. No matter how many deep breaths I took I felt like my body wasn’t receiving oxygen I felt as if I was legitimately suffocating. I have no clue what happened so I have no clue what could have caused this.

[Skeezyks]

Hello Trust: Well... I don't know a lot about these sorts of things. But from what you describe this sounds like a panic attack to me. I see this is your first post here on PC. So... welcome to PsychCentral! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

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[Sunflower123]

Hello. Welcome to PC.

Just variations of panic attacks. Pretty severe, though. Do you see a mental health professional? Are you taking any medication for anxiety/panic disorder?

When panic attacks are so severe that they interrupt school, you need to see someone.

This sounds very similar to my experiences. Have you been taking any new meds, even OTC? Had any vaccines recently? Eaten anything like fish? The symptoms you describe sound like some sort of toxicity. Don't discount anything, even a cold medicine because this is what did it for me. Actually there is a longer story, but I want to wait for your response first, and hope you are feeling better because it can be very scary.

[Celebrate8]

It sounds like you were having a panic attack. There is a quick breathing exercise that works well for me. Find a safe place where you can sit down and be alone if you can. Breath in through your nose slowly for a count of 7 seconds ( 1-1000, 2-1000, 3-1000, etc.) filling your lungs completely. Then hold your breath for 7 seconds. Then exhale out of your mouth slowly for 7 seconds. Your breath should be expelled completely around 7 seconds if done at a correct pace. Give or take a second. It takes a little practice so don't give up. Then repeat until your heart rate has decreased. It usually takes a minute or two of doing this to bring your heart rate down to a normal rate. It also grounds you in reality as you are focusing on your breath. It's hard to do anything but panic when your heart rate is up so high. So just simply focusing on bringing your heart rate down will improve all of your symptoms bringing you back to reality.

P.S. Panic attacks can be exacerbated by caffeine, lack of sleep, hunger, dehydration, pms, stress obviously. Make sure all of your basic needs have been met. Sometimes just assessing yourself for a minute can help you identify what has set you off. Knowing is half the battle. Often times we can correct something to help soothe our panic. Having said that, sometimes there isn't an obvious reason and that is ok.

[comeintothehole]

Hi, I'm late but I'd love to answer your question.
Look, some time ago I would have identified myself a lot with that. But today I see how it makes no sense to think like that, I mean, ARE WE HERE, RIGHT? I AND YOU AND THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE IN THE WORLD AND THERE SHOULD BE A SENSE FOR ALL THAT. And as much as we do not know (and probably will never know) it is important that we look on the other side. These thoughts will not help you in your recovery, they will only sink you deeper, I mean, how could they help you? So after I started to think like that, after I started to stop looking for meaning in life and tried to make sense of it, everything changed.
It is common to have episodes of depersonalization when you are anxious, especially if you are curious and want to frantically find out everything about everything. The origin of life. Take it easy. Because you will not get there.
In my case I wanted a proof at my feet that God existed. So I, being unable to do worse, decided to search for reasons to believe and not believe in God. And everything, ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING, about both beliefs made sense. And it started to eat me up and eat me alive. I was in such a big crisis and I did not know where to run. But one day, I decided I would take it easy and, talking to other people also got the help needed.
From what I have read, your case is more to the derealization than the depersonalization itself. Although it could be both. Research it.
It is very common to feel this, studies say that everyone will have at least one episode in life.
Just try not to feed those thoughts.
But anyway, I think what I have to tell you is this: Take it easy and I'll be here if you need to.