[Butterfly_Faerie]

<font color=purple>I find that in the mornings my anxiety is up espeically if i'm here at my BF's place... and then once i'm up and about doing things it subsides, but I find it mostly is up espeically if I wake up and my BF is not there, obviously he is at work... so why the anxiety?

I've also had to bring up to my psychiatrit my 'meat' anxiety. For some reason I always have to check my meat, espeically chicken, the fear is eating it somewhat raw and getting sick.

I've never had this before until a while back while at a friends BBQ the burgers weren't completely cooked, we all had this problem, and my friend made a comment saying "I hope we don't all get sick from eating". Ever since then food anxiety. Little bit of an upset stomache that I get, anxiety comes up.

I cannot stop eating meat, I could never be a vegetarian, and I like meat, but I cannot stop checking it out, and getting anxious over it.

Also, at night, anxiety out of the blue. I don't feel good it's anxiety.

I finally got over my Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, life was grand, and then anxiety is all over the map.

I have to start applying for jobs in the next couple weeks, i'm afraid that my anxiety will stop me from applying.

I know I shouldn't be thinking this far ahead.... but it is a worry.

But to help me out with this my psychiatrist has me writting down steps in the order that I'm going to do to get me a job again. Startin with say..... looking online for jobs.... printing out my resume.

I now have to see this as something that I do not have to take in terms of work. I'm allowed to be picky. I just see now an interview as practice, not a job I have to take.

I've been doing alot of postive self talk lately, I have too to stop my anxiety and it almost always goes away. I mean I've mastered this but it's still a burden.

It's a pain in my rear.

Anywho- so that is what is going on with me. Been like this for awhile now, but so far it hasn't stopped me from doing anything, I hope it doesn't get to the point of crippling me like it did in the past.

I refuse to let it cripple me rather... screw that. I control the anxiety, anxiety doesn't control me.

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[kama]

I am going through the exact same situation right now. I also have food anxiety, not just about meat though, but meat is something that I am "afraid" of. I hate eating at BBQs or resturants because I don't get to cook my own food. But I also have anxiety about eating meat at home because I worry about it making me sick. Actually I worry about everything making me sick. I was diagnosed as anorexic, but as I am working on things it is becoming apparent that my not eating is based in anxiety and control. LIke, if I can control what I eat then at least I can control something. I also get nervous at the littlest tummy ache or wierd feeling, anything.
I am also just about to start my job search and I am really worried that my worrying is going to keep me from going through with it. I just started a summer job, that is kinda high stress and I almost didn't go to work the past few days because of my anxiety and fears of feeling sick at work. I am scared to death about my new job and about interviews.
I hate to keep rambling on, but it is so great to find someone that is going through somewhat of the same thing. If you want to talk sometime, like maybe through e-mail, that would be great. Kate

[wisewoman]

Sorry your anxiety is giving you a run for your money. I hope it gets gentleted soon

[Butterfly_Faerie]

Thanks guys, anxiety is ok for now, but I was checking my chicken last night to make sure that it is cooked.

So far so good, might get bad tonight however because i'll be here on my own while my BF goes to work ... leaving at 9 tonight... so this will be the frist time staying in this house at night by myself. You might see me posting here if I start to panic.

I plan to watch a movie tonight to waste sometimes. Right now i'm not anxious, so I hope that it will stay that way.

I never had 'meat' anxiety until that one day at the bbq.... The only meat besides chicken that can make you sick if it's not cooked right is hamburg meat......

I'll let you know how I am later tonight, hopefully the anxiety wont come up and bite me in the behind...

I will do self talk etc to keep my anxiety down, and I wont forget to breathe. But now I'm just assuming something will happen, i'm thinking ahead which I shouldn't be.

Kama, I too get a nervous stomache, but that is part of having anxiety, we automatically assume because our stomache is upset that we are going to get sick....that is always pretty much the case. Just have to remind yourself that you will be ok... chances of getting sick are slim to none when eating. I myself have never gotten food poisioning....and if my stomache is sore then I'll talk myself out of it not being sore, or drink some gingerale, have some pepto-bismol.

I use to fear work, but remember anticipatory anxiety is always worse, it is for me. Just breathe, remind yourself that you will be ok, nothing is going to happen to you, you are not going to get sick.

I can now talk myself out of anxiety, before I couldn't and it took me many years to accomplish this so it actually worked. This food anxiety thing just popped up in the last month. I too have to find a job soon, and got an application for a local food store here.... I know my anxiety is going to be up, but with me once i'm there I'm ok it's just getting out the door can be the stopper. But as long as I push myself and not give in and tell myself to get it done in over with I end up the one being on top and not the anxiety.

Self talk is key, avoidance is a definate no no, I'm the master of avoidance, my phsychiatrist told me this.. lol.

Just got to face the music, talk and breathe, just do what I do with my anxiety. Tell yourself that you have to get dressed but you don't have to go. Next tell yourself to get out the door and on your way to work, but you don't have to go. Once you are at the job site tell yourself to go into the door, you can always turn back.

But once you are there you'll notice that the anxiety is gone. If I pretend to give myself an escape route I can get there and be absoulutly fine.

This wont work for everyone, but it might you like it did me.

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