Scared

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist today before when I was in the mental hospital it was because I'd tried to hurt myself several times by the third time it was to much for my mom and she took me to the er.but all this was because I had a regular check up and my doctor started asking me personal question about abuse I answered honestly and said there had been some incidents as a child and once a fight last year she said she wanted to share this with my psychiatrist and therapist and stupid me can't tell anyone no so I said yes that's fine but I didn't want her to so afterwards I began hurting myself hoping I'd never make the appointment but it's today I'm so scared of not being able to keep my mouth shut and that he'll call adultprotective services

If they mention it you can say you don't want to talk about it. They may not remember anyway.