[Nemii]

I'm so anxious and jittery I want to run, jump, scream, laugh, cry, curl up into a ball, roll around, and scream again.
There is so much nervous energy I'm fighting at the moment I'm getting lightheaded. I have nothing to be afraid of, I'm okay but at the same time I'm sitting here thinking about slamming my head into a wall because I generally deal with this sort of thing with self harm [not so dramatically I forget sometimes it's hard to hear tone in text rather then knowing I'm being a touch sarcastic] but I'm working past that old methed of coping. So now I'm sitting here heart racing chain smoking ready to scream and it's 10 pm soooo if I do that now I'll really upset some people. XD
It's strange, when it's silent and no one is screaming at me... I get nervous. But when I'm being yelled at or called names-- I'm very calm. I think it's whenever I have to sit and be with myself I lose my mind. Not one person in my life who MATTERS has said anything kind or loving to me in at least three months lol-- this must be conditioning or something.

BLEH Anyone else ready to explode for no good reason?

I'm sorry if my spelling is off-- XD




MEH!

[$HDA$]

I think to know what are you talking about.... Yesterday I was sitting on my bad, my head empty but still full of pain. I thought huors about my loneliness, and hours again... And I wanted to scream loudly and cry, but I could not. I tried to stay busy (I had my shower, I ordered my room...). But still. Agony.
But today is another day. I want to stay quiet and have fun with my boyfriend...he has to undergo an ultrasound, and I must stand by him.

[Nemii]

Originally Posted by $HDA$

I think to know what are you talking about.... Yesterday I was sitting on my bad, my head empty but still full of pain. I thought huors about my loneliness, and hours again... And I wanted to scream loudly and cry, but I could not. I tried to stay busy (I had my shower, I ordered my room...). But still. Agony.
But today is another day. I want to stay quiet and have fun with my boyfriend...he has to undergo an ultrasound, and I must stand by him.

I'm sorry you're struggling through all that. :[
I'm just complaining but you have a lot to worry about.

[$HDA$]

Originally Posted by Nemii

I'm sorry you're struggling through all that. :[
I'm just complaining but you have a lot to worry about.

Life is hard, but we must be stronger!!!!!
I need only to understand in what way I have to cope with my worry